𝗠𝘆 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗿³ // 𝘑𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘳

chapter 13

"Yeah, I've known Jaden since he was twelve. He comes here time to time, usually nobody knows, but for our appointments in past few months he told me his family knows."
"Oh, well that's new."
"Oh, wait you didn't know he was going to therapist?"
"Um, no. We just made up few days ago, he didn't say he goes to you, he said they recommended him the best therapist."
"Oh, that's not good. I thought he told you."
"No, but it's fine. I'll talk to him later."
We started talking about everything, slowly going through topic of rape, and us being kidnapped two months ago and how that affected me and all that stuff, she was a good listener and she gave good advices.
I'll be coming here three times a week, I can come whenever I want.
I decided I'd call Cooper to pick me up, just because I don't think Jaden had a meeting or something, I have a gut feeling like he is with some chick right now.

"Hey Coop, thanks for picking me up."
"Of course."
"So where is Jaden?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well what is he doing right now there?"
"I don't know, he is with somebody in office, there was a lot of yelling, but I don't know, I didn't check nor listen to argument."
We drove to building and I walked in after thanking Cooper for drive.
The doors of his office were slightly opened so I stood right next to wall, listening to the argument.
"Jaden please, you know I'm better than her. We built a stronger relationship in past two months than what we ever had."
Blonde girl said putting her hands on his chest and cheek.
"Madison no, I just used you like a distraction. I don't care how bad it sounds. But you should really know your worth sometimes, aren't you bored of me asking you for sex everytime I break up with my girlfriend? Last two months were just us hooking up, we weren't in relationship."
"Can I at least get one last time?"
"No Madison, that's not right. It doesn't matter if my girlfriend doesn't want to sleep with me, I won't cheat on her. I called you here to explain you that things between us are ended 3 days ago so you can stop texting me unless you want me to block you."
"That means you didn't have sex in three days. C'mon Jaden, it can be our goodbye to each other. It won't mean anything, not that anytime we hooked up meant to you."
"No, it's wrong, I don't want to hurt Lexi. And I'd like you to leave, I'm asking you nicely, human to human, to go out, before I have to go and get her, or I'll call somebody to get you out."
There was a silence so I peaked a bit, to see her tongue down his throat. I couldn't get if he was trying to push her away or not, I just walked away in his room.
I sat down on the bed and broke down crying.
Did he actually go back to girl that called me whore multiple times and tried to get in our relationship? He really just slept with her whole two months? That's obviously why he did not care to call me or even text me. What does this means? My dad told me I shouldn't give up to him easy and to try to act harder to get. Great now I'm already crying over him. But he did end things with her. Yeah and he kissed her, so calling her here to end things doesn't make it any better.
"Babe?
Babe what happened?"
I heard Jaden say as he walked in the room.
"Cooper told me you called him to pick you up, why didn't you call me?"
"I don't know, maybe I didn't wanted to ruin yours and Madison's moment."
"Wh- What do you mean with that?"
"Oh don't act like your tongue wasn't down in her throat just three minutes ago."
"No it was not, where did you get that from?"
"I saw you two. And I heard half of it."
"Lex it wasn't like it looked like. I promise you, I called her here just cause she wouldn't stop texting me, and I ended things her after what happened between me and you in your house few days ago. But she wouldn't stop texting me."
"And what is kiss? You can't -"
"She kissed me and I tried pushing her away, I promise you, I would never hurt you like that, I might've hurt you differently, but I would never cheat. I promise you that. I didn't kiss her back."
"Why didn't you tell me you were going to meet up with her? If I went to meet up with my ex, especially if we've been hooking up while you and me weren't together I'd tell you."
"I'm sorry Lex, I didn't think it would matter, cause I just planned on telling her to stop texting me, I'd tell you after."
"Would you actually?"
"Look I'm really sorry babe, I didn't think she'd kiss me. I pushed her away when I could, she wouldn't let go of me. I promise I didn't kiss her back, she isn't even a good kisser."
"Don't talk shit on girl that you slept with past two months, no matter how much of a bitch she is you chose her at the first place."
"Look, I know it hurt you but it was nothing, she kissed me and I didn't kiss back, it didn't mean anything to me. I promise you I wouldn't ever cheat on you. Can we just move from that like it didn't even happen?"
"And how can I trust you now with that when you lied to me why were you coming here?"
"I'm sorry I didn't want to make you more upset.
Pretty please princess, it didn't mean anything, she forced herself onto me."
"How many chances do I have to give you? I gave you one three days ago!"
"I promise you, I just had to make it clear to her that we are done cause she is obsessed. I won't fuck it up."
He pulled me in hug and soon I gave up, I just had to. I love him too much, I can't leave him.
I pulled away from hug slapping him across the face.
"Ouch."
"You deserved it."
"I know, I didn't say that I didn't deserve it, I just said it hurts."

We laid down in bed cuddling while I was on my phone.
"Jae?"
"Yeah baby?"
"Can I talk to you for a second?"
"Sure." He said satting up straight on the bed and I did too.
"What do you want to talk about?"
"Do you wanna talk to me about you going to therapist?"
His eyes widened.
"What? W-Where did you get that from?"
"It doesn't matter. Can we talk about it?"
"I, um, uh, what did Linda tell you?"
"She didn't intentionally sneak on you, I don't even remember what she said, but she said that you told her that your family knows you are going to therapist, so she thought I know too since you got me to her. And that you've been going there since you was 12 time to time, but in last two months you've been multiple times. I won't judge you, I just wanna help you like you wanna help me."
"I, uh, well, yeah, I've been going to therapist. That one time, quite a few months ago, when I didn't want to show you what I was doing on my phone, I've been texting her. Sometimes I just text her when I don't feel like I wanna go there."
"Ooh, and?"
"Well, I met her once we went on family dinner with John's family. She is my aunt pretty much. So she knows everything about the job and stuff. So I decided to secretly go and talk to her, she's been there always. But I feel like I'm weak when I even think about me telling anybody that I'm going to therapist."
"You're not weak, okay? It's pretty normal thing nowadays, you don't need to be ashamed. You should be proud of yourself for taking care of your mental health."
"I know, I just, I don't know, I feel like I'm the man and I don't know, I always used to take care of my mom, and sister, and even you when I met you, and I shouldn't act like a little weak boy that still has traumas from his biological father."
"Everyone has feelings, gender doesn't matter. You're not weak, we all have traumas. I have mine, you have yours, everybody has their owns and they are different. And that's okay, we all cope our different ways."
"I know, I just, I don't know. I-I guess I always try acting tough, so I don't seem weak in others eyes, but I actually am just an emotional kid locked at age of zero to eleven and can't get over it."
"It's okay, I know you have your guard and it's completely normal. I don't know all the things you've been through as a kid, but one thing I definitely know is that you are one of the strongest people I met in my life. And I'm so proud that you are still here, cause I don't think I'd live through all that."
"T-Thank you."
He quickly wiped away his tears looking away from me.
"Hey." I said pulling his head back so he'd face me.
"It's alright, let them out, let it out, that is normal, and doesn't make you less strong in my eyes."
More tears left his eyes and I pulled him in my chest, rubbing his back and playing with his hair.
"Do you wanna tell me one memory that is connected with your trauma. Whatever you want. You'll feel better, and I want to listen."
"I, uh, -"

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So they sneaked him on many things ✋🏻
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