skinny love

chapter 8

"Good morning, honey" my mom shook me lightly.

"Hi mom" I rubbed my eyes and sat up.

"I'm gonna leave $200 for the weekend... don't do anything stupid with it. Okay?"

What the hell does she expect me to buy? "Okay, mom"

"I'll see you Sunday. Go back to sleep. I love you and I'll call you after work"

"You still have to work?"

"Yeah, they called me in"

"Well I love you, bye"

"Good bye sweetie"

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12 pm. So tired. I want to sleep but Anne is downstairs and she'll bug me all fucking day about eating.

I get out of bed and head to the bathroom. I washed my face and got ready to weigh myself. What if I gained so much weight? 110. Back to where I was. Why can't I be 90 pounds? That's my new goal weight. I deserve to be happy.

I walked down stairs and layed on the couch. I was actually hungry and I don't know why. This is very bad.

"Hi Vi, ready to start the day?" she giggled at the thought of how much day there actually was.

"You skipped breakfast, so I think you need a big lunch today"

I glares at her and huffed. Why is this so hard?

"Look, I kno-"

"What the hell do you know? You don't know what it's like to be forced to eat and hate yourself for it! I am so tired of this. Just leave already!" I felt tears coming out if my eyes.

I ran upstairs and locked my bedroom door. I feel so shitty. I ate so much this week and I just yelled at Anne. She probably hates me now. I wanna apologize but I don't feel like I should. She's the one making me fat.

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"Ed's here" Anne said outside my door.

She didn't bother talking to me the whole day. She didn't even care that I didn't eat. But that's good. I don't need to eat.

"Okay... be down in a few" I put on a pair of sweats and my bmth sweatshirt, and headed downstairs.

"Ed!" I jumped on him and gave him a big hug.

"Vi!" she hugged me back and set me down.

"I'm gonna go... Just text me..." Anne walked out the door.

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Ed and I were sitting in my bed watching The Little Mermaid. It's a good thing he likes these movies.

Joanna: Hey! There's a huge party tonight, come?

Joanna was one of my best friends from two years ago. We kinda drifted away when she got a boyfriend, Calum Hood. She forgot about Ed and I when she got him. He's a huge dick to her. I don't see why she's with him. But were friends, just not close. I miss her.

Me: idk im with ed and were watching movies...

Joanna: Please? It'll be fun!

Well I did feel shitty. Maybe I can get my mind off of things? I have never been drunk in my life, nor do I want to be. But I could really get things off my mind.

"Ed?"

"Yeah Vi?"

"I wanna go somewhere..."

"Yeah? where?" he grabbed my hand and kissed it.

"Joanna invited us to a party..."

"I hate parties, you know that"

"I know, but I could really get things off my mind, besides I won't drink. You know I have never actually drank in my life"