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~The only thing I feel is pain, caused by absence of you

Suspence is controlling my mind, I cannot find the way out of here~

As I drove on the night got darker, as I watched the sky turn to black and slowly twinkle with the small shining stars. By now the song had changed to Stolen dance by Milky Chance. I liked this song a lot, it was upbeat and made me feel good.

I pulled out my pack at a stop light and lit up. People say smoking is bad for you, which it is and I knew that; but there was something about the feeling that calmed me. My mom used to smoke when I was really little, but she quit when I got to about 8. It wasn't hard for her, she said that she never understood why people couldn't just have self control and when they want to quit just quit. She said addiction started with the state of mind. If you keep thinking about how much you 'need' to smoke and how much it 'helps' you, then you'll never be able to quit. It makes sense to me now.

I was about five minutes away from home when my phone went off. I tossed my cigarette and pulled into my neighborhood. As soon as I was in the driveway I pulled out my phone and checked it. It was Sam.

Sam: Hey Skylar! Give me a call when you can I'm gonna be home in a few days. Hope to hear from you soon :)

I smiled as I could hear his voice in my head as I read the message. I figured I'd just wait and call him tomorrow, it was already 10 and I wasn't in a great mood to be doing any catching up.

I walked in and saw Matty on the couch with his feet up on the coffee table. He jumped up as I walked in, but calmed when he saw that it was only me. Not Doug, I guess.

"Hey Sky, how was your drive?" He said with a welcoming smile. His smile made me feel at home, safe. I loved it.

"It was good, sorry I just needed some time to think and clear my head." I looked away a bit shyly, almost embarrassed. I'm not sure why, since I trusted Matty with everything, my feelings, thoughts, problems. Well most everything.

"That's alright love, I completely understand. Well I figured maybe we could watch your favorite movie then go to bed? I thought you might need some cheering up," His eyes grew wide as he got nervous. Maybe because he thought I was still upset. "Unless you're tired and just want to go to bed. I totally get that too." He rushed those last few sentences, afraid that I was still about to break.

"I'd love to watch a movie." I said, trying to smile wide to reassure him as much as I could.

"Great, Dirty Dancing it is."

Matty knew my favorite movie was Dirty Dancing. I really liked having someone in my life who put in such an effort to remember little details about me. It made me feel so significant. I could only hope to make him feel this way.

"Yay! I'll make popcorn." I walked to the kitchen and put in a microwaveable bag of popcorn. I ran to my room and threw on sweatpants as fast as I could and yanked off my sweater I had on. I ran back out to the kitchen in a tank top and sweater, that seemed to be my trademark.

"World's fastest changer are we?" He winked on the last syllable. His face made me want to melt. Every time I looked into his eyes I just wanted to be taken away into another world. Or should I say, that's what it felt like.

"I hold the world record, you just never knew."

"I bet I would've found out anyways." He winked again but this time he left the kitchen so I knew I could let my face fall into the biggest smile. My face actually hurt from it, God he made me so happy, in every single way. It was amazing how one person could affect you so much.

I followed him and sat on the couch with the bowl of buttery popcorn. Maybe this would relax me. I just had to try. That's all.

I couldn't focus on the movie and Matty started to fall asleep about halfway through. I turned it off and decided I'd just go to bed. Every night Matty would sleep on my couch or I on his. We never slept together. It was a nice sign of respect. At the same time I wanted him close to me, but I knew that was wrong so I didn't say anything about it. 

I climbed into bed and tried to sleep but I couldn't. I couldn't stop thinking about Doug. I started to get scared again, I had to keep telling myself that I was safe now. Eventually I drifted to sleep.

But then the nightmares began.

I saw Doug with that broken bottle except it was against my throat. My mom was behind him trying to reach me but some invisable force was holding her back. She was crying, I kept screaming 'Mom' but it didn't help. Doug was in my face, it was ugly. I kept hearing his strained voice 'Why'd you leave me Skylar huh? Is he better than me?'. Over and over again. Then my dad was there but he was packing all his stuff, as Doug's grip on my throat tightened. I felt tears fall onto my cheeks. Doug was pressing against my skin with the broken glass. Blood slowly started to trickle down my neck. My breath started to stagger and my mom was screaming now. She fell to her knees and I could see her eyes slowly shut as she collapsed on the floor. My father gave me one last look and shed a tear. They left me here with this monster trying to cut open my neck. Then I saw my aunt appear in my mother's place. She was crying too as she watched Doug twist my arm. My skin quickly bruised and she cried harder. I kept shouting 'Why aren't you helping me?', but then a figure of myself, drunk with scars all up my arms, appeared and shoved her out of the dream. I was left all alone with my life close to ending. All of a sudden Matty popped out of nowhere and grabbed Doug. He threw him away, but then something strange happened. Matty came and hugged me, kissed my head, then got up and looked at me. He had tears in his eyes as he waved goodbye. He then slowly walked out of my dream; I was left all alone. I was left there with blood running onto my shirt, as tears washed the red dye off my neck.

I was alone yet again, without a soul to save me by.

A/N-

hey guys so I hope you enjoyed this chapter hopefully I will have time this weekend to update more(:

I am happy to say I have written out the full ending to this story I just need to finish the storyline leading up to it. it is in my opinion a good ending, im actually really proud and excited.

i hope you all have a great threeday weekend be safe and stay warm!

love, jordan xx