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A week later we held a funeral. I called the boys and Sam, and told them what happened. I didn't give details, and I'm not sure if I ever will. It hurts just to think her name, I have no idea how I would be able to tell that wretched story. People say time heals everything and it hasn't been much time. Maybe someday o could overcome this but for now I just wanted to drink.

Drink until my veins went numb and the memory of her stained face washed out of my mind. I wanted things to go back to where they were. Blissful, exciting; a state of mind and where I was invincible. Somewhere where we were both happy. Then again maybe she's happier now.

Maybe this was something she had to do. I don't believe in any God but I know she did, and if God truly existed, maybe she was there and peaceful. That's what we all want right? To know that after our souls leave this earth that the have another place to keep going, but this time without the pain. Take away all the suffering and crime and here, right in front of us you might have 'heaven' or whatever you believe in. So in the off chance she is happy or content up there, I must at least try to be as well.

We could still be happy together.

We're just apart.

A/N-
hey guys,

I know this is a short chapter but I wanted to get this one out there.

I'm working on the next chapter as you read this (5/7/15) and will try to have it done in a few days.
thank you for being so patient with me I appreciate it so much.

also, I have a brainstorm for another story.... leave a comment or message me if you think I should publish it. it is not a fanfic, it's about a girl going through high school and idk I think it's pretty interesting but let me know if that sounds too basic.

much love as always,
jordan xx