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~Wake me up from this dream that never ends,

I'm dreaming I'm dreaming til my bitter end,

Wake me up from this nightmare that I live~

A/N-hey guys i'm sorry if you're disappointed with this chapter:( I didn't really have any ideas for a good chapter... but I did need to get this out of the way so.. I hope it's not too terrible.. thank you for the reads I cannot thank you all enough. I hope you can try to enjoy this short chapter im sorry:(((

love, jordan xx

Mattys POV

I carried Skylar to her bed a while after she fell asleep (she's surprisingly a heavy sleeper). I put her under her covers and kissed her head, then fell asleep on the couch. Before I did I kept thinking about what she had told me today, how Doug had been hitting her. It made me so furious. She deserved better than that, and I knew if I tried I could give that to her. I vowed that night, to myself and to a peacefully sleeping Skylar, that I would never hurt her no matter what. That means emotionally or physically. I couldn't even bare to think about her in pain. It was an awful feeling, I should know, and she of all people did not deserve it.

I woke up in the middle of the night and decided to step outside for a minute, sometimes I liked to look at the moon, just because it's so beautiful and calming.

As I stepped out onto the pale lit sidewalk, I noticed that someone was sitting on Skylar's driveway, looking up too. I was prepared to see Doug but as I silently approched I saw Skylar's dark brown hair falling over her shoulders.

"What are you doing out here love?" I asked quietly so I wouldn't scare her, as I sat down next to her. She still jumped a bit but not much.

"Oh, I don't know sometimes I like to sit and look at the stars. It makes me feel like my mom's still with me. She showed me the stars and constellations when I was like nine. I thought they were boring then, but now it's like the only thing I have left of her." She smirked, I assume nervously and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

"I can go if you'd like," I began but she cut me off and grabbed my hand.

"No please don't, it's nice to actually have someone with me during this." I nodded, I could understand that. I could only imagine what she must have been going through since then and then not having someone there for her on top of it.

We sat there for a while just observing and looking, if anyone else would have come out they would've thought we were crazy for sitting outside at 3:30 in the morning just watching stars. After about ten minutes she spoke again.

"When I was ten my dad sat me down one day, and he said 'Skylar there's something I need to tell you.' I asked where my mom was because I figured she would be there if it was something important. He ignored my question and his eyes watered up. The thing is is that I didn't even notice he was crying until I thought this whole memory through again a couple years ago. I didn't remember the way the my cat was rubbing against my chair, or the way my dads face looked so tired, or the way the sky was the clearest blue I'd ever seen. I only remembered the news. He said 'Hun, two years ago your mom was diagnosed with cancer. We didn't tell you because it wasn't that bad.' I got confused and asked him 'Then why are you telling me now?' and he laughed a bit, but with tears pouring out his soft eyes. I didn't see him cry ever, but once at his friends funeral. I remember he took my hand and said 'Because the cancer spread and she needs surgery.' I couldn't handle it." She looked up at the sky, still holding my hand. This whole time I hadn't looked at her, and when I did I saw the tears rushing out of her eyes as if escaping a prison. They had been held in too long.

"I didn't know what to do so I ran. I just ran out of my house and kept going. I didn't know where I was going, I still don't know where I was going. I just wanted out. She wasn't supposed to die. She was supposed to watch me go to my first homecoming. She was going to help do my hair for my prom and go wedding dress shopping with me. She was going to teach me how to handle kids, and she was going to be here when I graduated. She was supposed to meet the love of my life. And now she's just gone. I kept thinking about that, and how she was going to miss the rest of my life, and it took me five years to remember when she took me outside and showed me the stars and said 'No matter how far I am from you we will always have the same stars that shine down and protect us at night.' So I like to think that she's sitting on one of those stars protecting me."

She went silent after this, so I put my arm around her gently. She leaned into me so I knew it was okay.

"Sky, she is. I promise you. And you have to remember that she is still watching over you. She's still going to see the rest of your life. I bet you she was standing right next to you while you walked down and got your diploma. She loves you Sky, she isn't going to leave just because of some cancer." I felt her shake as she cried harder into my shoulder. She was crying faster, and gasping for breaths. I stroked her hair and kissed her head. I didn't know what else to really say so I just sat there with her as she slowly slowed her tears.

"Come on darling, let's get you to bed okay?" She nodded and we walked back inside.

She went to bed after I sang her a song, and then gave her a quick hug. I was pretty tired myslef so it wasn't hard to fall asleep.

I had a dream where Skylar and I went to her mother's grave and she was there. Short brown hair, with eyes like Skylar's, sharp blue. In my dream, they had their moment and her mother hugged me and said thank you for helping her through everything while she was gone. I woke upsurprisingly quick and a bit scared. I had to think if my dream was really a dream or reality.

After a good twenty minutes I tried to go back to bed, and right before my eyes fell hard into a deep heavy sleep, I swear I saw a short woman with short brown her and crystal blues eyes standing i the kitchen.

She mouthed 'Thank you' with a gorgeous smile.