Just trying to be normal

Chapter 1

A/N: This story is gonna be mostly in one persons POV unless I say other wise. When I put something into '' that means it's her verbal tick and ** means it's a physical tick. Anything in italics are your thoughts. I don't know much about Tourette's but I really liked this idea of a book. I'm trying to educate myself on the Syndrome to make this book good and not to offend anyone :)
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Hi I'm Knoxley Davie I have a twin brother named Kenson he's like my other half. He's always there to stick up for me because I have Tourette Syndrome, I'm intersex, with anxiety....crazy right? But I don't let that hold me back. I have one older brother Kailor and a younger sister named Kannon. All K's!

My brother and I are super smart we both have 4.0+ gpa's although mine is higher than his. We play football and basketball. We aren't as good in basketball, but we're still good. I'm better than him in football. I play wide receiver and point guard in basketball same with Kenson. My passion is football. You might think because I'm a girl how is that possible but when you're 6'3 185 pounds of pure muscle and faster than the speed of light no one complains.

We came to Riverside High School to finish high school because of how badly bullied I was at our last school but to also pursue football. They are top in the country. What the players don't know is that I'm intersex. The coaches and our Quarterback, Rexon Cooper, are the only ones who know about me being intersex. Most the starters and coaches know I have Tourette's but some don't.

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We are moving into our new house right now. The neighborhood was full of huge houses including ours. Everything is so much bigger and less expensive out here.

"Knox come get some boxes. Be careful please." My mother said from the moving truck. "'Fuck off!' *tick* sorry yes ma'am" I can't help what comes out or what movement I do. I always feel so bad for cussing or hitting or messing something up. I really don't mean to.

I picked up a box and walked out of the truck when I saw this gorgeous girl walking over to us 'dibs' I said to Kenson through my tick. I hope she didn't hear. She smiled god she's beautiful. She had blonde hair, ocean blue eyes, gorgeous freckles, and tanned perfect skin. She was about 5'7, thin, and was wearing a tank top so I saw her toned stomach. Butterfliesssss

"Hi you must be the new neighbors. Welcome to the neighborhood! I'm Rainlee Cooper most people just call me Rainy I have a twin brother named Rexon and a few other siblings but their busy at the moment so you'll most likely meet them later." Rexon Cooper? Wait! That's the Quarterbacks name. "Hi I'm Knoxley Davie but most people call me Knox. Did you say Rexon Cooper?" Right before she got to answer Kenson came over and introduce himself

"Cooper? No way sissy that's our teammates name!" He said shocked. Before I could try to control my tick it came out 'She's cute.'*tick* I made a quiet noise at the end. I always make this kind of quiet noise during my tick. Kind of like a gasp/squeak.

After I said that I could feel my cheeks heating up. She giggled. Kenson looked at me asking if he could tell her I gave him a nod

"Forgive her she has Tourette's. Do you mind just not telling anyone about it for now if that's ok?" He asked as he came closer so his shoulder was touching mine so I wouldn't start panicking. My anxiety has gotten worse with this move. "Oh yeah of course. That's not my business to tell. Secret safe with me and I think you're cute too!"

I smiled at her *tick* 'drop it' and with that I dropped the box. I hope nothing fragile was in there. I sighed and bent down to pick it up.
"Do you guys need help?" She asked as I stood back up with the box. We nodded sure and she helped us
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'Slap yourself' *tick* I slapped myself very hard. I turned and walked out the room before I could look up to see if Rainlee was looking at me weirdly, but I couldn't help it so I looked up. She didn't even look at me like she was unfazed by i.

The ones that physically hurt me always make me overwhelmed so I pluck the blue rubber band on my wrist and put my Airpods in taking a beat. That's the only way I can control my ticks better.

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We finished unpacking the house and the Coopers invited us over for dinner to meet them. I got to meet my future Quarterback. The order of Rainlee's siblings went Laken then Rainlee then Rexon then Sutton. They were all around the ages of me and my siblings so that's good. I told them about my Tourette's and anxiety. Now they are just asking questions about it. Which I don't mind

"So what's it like having Tourette's?" Ms.Cooper asked

"Well in all honesty ma'am it's terrifying. I'm the outcast to society. I don't *tick* fit in. 'Loser' My ticks are my biggest hater which sucks and when I get overwhelmed they get worse like a panic attack but with ticks. The most I get overwhelmed is when I physically tick. I slap and hit *tick* myself and it hurts to a point where I go into panic. I've gotten used to it but still takes a 'shut up' a toll on me. Football is the only thing that calms me"

"Is that why you use that rubber band? Is that another calming mechanism?"Rainlee asked looking very interested in the conversation

"Yes. I usually *tick* use it when Keni isn't around. My twin helps me a lot. His physical touch helps me calm down or he usually where's jeans because I like to hook my finger around one of his belt loops it gives me something to focus on. I don't like to let go because I need to focus on it to calm myself, but I sometimes don't let go when my tick wants me to *tick* let go so I pull too hard but he 'too hard' never yells at me he just makes me focus on his voice. I appreciate him so much. He never complains." I said as Kenson patted my back. I really love my brother.

"Wow that must be so hard." I saw the pity in Ms.Cooper's eyes. I hate pity so I looked down so I don't have to feel it.

"Ms.Cooper I apologize if this comes off the wrong way but Knox doesn't like pity. She can see it in your eyes. When we were younger she didn't speak a lot so she become very observant. So she can see whatever you're feeling right now and can see it in your eyes. Shes reading you Miss. She doesn't mean to but she can't help it." He really is my savior

"My apologies Knoxley, but it's amazing how you are with your ticks. I don't mean to overwhelm you." She said. I could tell she was genuinely sorry. I feel so comfortable with The Coopers already.

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