Just trying to be normal

Chapter 3

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That hurt her. I could see it in her eyes. "That doesn't define who I am!" I grabbed her hand to get her to calm down and sit down. Everyone was staring. Now or never I guess. I stood up a got everyone's attention

"Hi everyone *tick* I'm Knoxley Davie. I am the wide receiver on the football team...and *tick* I have T-Tourette syndrome. That doesn't d-define who I am. *tick* Please don't treat me differently or think I'm any less then." With that everyone started clapping and hooting.

When I sat back down Lee kissed me on the cheek and Kenson messed up my hair. Gabi had left but another girl approached with a smile

"Hi I'm Mayson! Hi Rainlee! Anyway what you did was so brave. I'm part of the Newspaper and I don't mean to bother you but would you mind if I interview you on the topic of you Tourette syndrome?" Mayson was nice she was about 5'4, brunette, hazelnut eyes, and she was wearing a Riverside soccer sweatshirt. She's Lee's teammate.

"Uhh 'No' Excuse me sorry. Sure I would love to! Do you want to do it now or?" I asked her "We'll do it after Thursday's pep rally. Nice meeting you Knoxley have a great day!" She waved and left. Maybe Junior year won't be horrible.

I jinxed it again. I felt someone slap me in the back of the head. "What's up stuttering dyke *tick*" he said mocking my Tourette's. "James leave her alone." Rexon said making James turn to him

"Did it look like I was talking to gay boy! Now, loser why do you twitch your hand when you tick. It makes you look like an idiot. I was unfazed by that. I used to get bullied about my twitching all the time.

Wait Rex is gay? Ok I mean I don't care. I need to stand up for him though. I stood up "Listen James. I might have Tourette's and Rexon might be gay, but 'gay' you have no right to come into our business and mess with us." I raised my voice

"Also hi my names Knoxley. Hot twin number 1." With that I sat down and put my arm around Rainlee. He rolled his eyes hit me in my head again and left. That felt so good.

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It was after school and I had practice. I walked out of the boys locker room. They made me my own little area that's blocked off from them. I only put on my padded spandex I didn't want to put my helmet and shoulder pads on yet because it gets so hot. I'm currently just in my sports bra. The cheerleaders except for Gabi was staring at me with Goggly eyes.

I take care of myself. I eat healthy, work out, run, and try my best with my mental health

*tick* Wow that was my first tick in like two hours. I hadn't even noticed. I walked to the practice field passing the cheerleaders "Hiiii Knoxley!" The girls said simultaneously and seductively. I waved and then looked to the soccer field seeing Rainlee staring at me. 'Hi Lee!' I screamed through my tick. Oops I looked at her apologeticly. 'Sorry' oh didn't mean to say that. I smacked myself on the forehead to stop me from yelling at her. "Hi!" She screamed out waving.

I really like her. She makes me feel so safe and has no problem with my Tourette's. She actually likes it.

"Ok boys! Oh...and Knox huddle up." *tick* "Kenson and Knoxley are our newest wide receivers. Where gonna start with some running drills, then ladders, tunnel of truth for a little fun, go over plays, then sprints at the end. Let's get it boys and knox" I hate when he does that. I don't care call me a guy.

"Rams on me! Rams on 3!.....1! 2! 3!" We all shouted Rams. We started at running drills. I beat out everyone. The hardest person to beat was Keni but I beat him still. I had run a 6.2 second 40-yard dash. Not the best, but I'll work at it

After practice was over I was so sweaty. The hardest thing the whole day was Tunnel of truth. I still did super well but it was draining. I'm dripping with sweat when I take my pads of leaving me in my sports bra again. "Knox! Want to go get ice cream?" Lee said as she walked over to me. 'You look pretty' *tick* "Awww thank you. I would say the same thing about you buuuuut you're all sweaty." She said laughing

"That's not very funny. Jerk *tick*"  I then quickly ran up to her and hugged her

"NO KNOX GET OFF OF ME! I already showered!" She whined. I laughed and let go. Before I start talking again I heard Roxen. "Sack check!" He sack checked me square in my balls and ran away. Roxen was one of the only boys that knew about me. I wonder if he told his family.

I bent over and held my nuts. I groaned and tried to stand back up but when I did it felt like I was going to vomit profusely. "Are you ok?!" Lee asked and I gave her a thumbs up still bent over trying not to throw up.

I finally stood up. I could feel a tick coming that didn't seem like it was good

No don't do it.
Please no
Times up!

'Sack check' and with that I sack checked myself. This was the wrong day not to wear a cup. It hurt but I couldn't focus on that. I started to get overwhelmed. I don't like when I hurt myself. Rainlee saw me starting to get worked up.

"Hey let's get you to the locker room." She took my hand and put it on her belt loop. She listens to what I say.

Once we got there I sat on my stool. "So what was that whole "nut check" about?" Oh god she doesn't know. I don't like to tell people because of what happened at my old school, but I can trust her.

"I think *tick* you should sit down." I said as she sat down before I continued

"We didn't come to Riverside for the soul purpose of playing football, but because my old school bullied me a lot...but it wasn't all because of my Tourette's....Do you know what intersex means?" She shook her head no "I mean I've heard of it but I don't really know what it means."

I took a deep breath followed by a tick. "I'm intersex. Which means I was born with 'dick' male genitalia. Everyone thought I was a boy growing up. That was until I hit puberty and *tick* I *tick* found out my top half was female. And now if you think I'm a complete freak please 'fuck off!' Sorry I meant please just *tick* leave. I won't talk to you and I'll just *tick* leave you alone. Just don't bully me. I can't take it all that well."
I finished looking down playing with the strings on my pants.

"So that's what that means....Intersex. Ok! Well hurry up and change so we can get that ice cream" huh? "I just told you I'm intersex? Andddd you still want to go out and be around me?"

She smiled "yeah you're still you. I like you for your personality not stuff you can and can't control. Now hurry up I'll be in the car." She kissed my cheek and left.

She's the first girl I've liked that hasn't judge me for who I am. She's so.....different. In a good way. Why though?

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