Just trying to be normal

Chapter 18

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The rays of sun wake me up today. I feel something heavy on top of me. I look down to see it's Rainlee laying on me. I sigh happily to myself. I've found my person.

I feel her shuffle and watch her slowly open her eyes. Those ocean blue ey see es are so gorgeous. "Good morning baby" she said in her raspy voice "Morning my love" she smiled and kissed me "you're raspy voice is so hot." I laugh at her comment and sigh again. She gets up making me miss the warm contact "Where are you going? Come back to bed?" I whine sitting up opening my arms. "No we have to get ready for school what time is it. I look at the clock to see it's displaying 6:45.

"Babe we still have so much time. The alarm doesn't go off for another 15 minutes. Come on get back over here." I said grabbing her arm dragging her back over. "Fine but I'm not falling back asleep

Lies she tells
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"Babe get up." I said yelling from out the bathroom "I'm up shut up" ok someone's in a mood. I popped my head out of the door "Are you having attitude with me?" I said taking the toothbrush out of my mouth "What if I am" she said before pulling her shirt off and turning to face me

Boobies

I smirked and licked my lips. She huffed and walked to my closet "Put your dick back in your pants and finish getting ready" I said and walked back in to spit.

After that I styled my hair and left the bathroom "I have to *tic*watch film at coach's house tonight with *tic*the rest of boys but ummm" I started to lose my train of thought. I closed my eyes. I started to tic a whole bunch "fuck" I ticked out "Not *tic* today" I said.

I huffed and put my hands in my hair "Hey it's ok. Don't get frustrated. It'll pass just keep breathing" Lee said coming to my side and rubbing my back. I couldn't stop ticking. My old tics were coming back.

"It's *tic* not going away.*tic* It should've went away by *tic* now" I kept clenching my jaw and moving my head and neck.

"Maybe you need to stay home baby" Lee said to me. I shook my no "I-I have a whole*tic* bunch of test today"

"I'm sure they would understand" I stood up "I said no! Ok! *tic* Ugh why wont *tic* it just *tic* pass!" I pushed all the stuff off my desk. I dropped down to the floor and started plucking myself with the rubber band as I started to cry.

"Shhhh it's ok Knox, it's ok" Lee said coming to my side. She engulfed me in a hug and just held me. I saw shaking, I couldn't stop ticking, I couldn't get my heart rate down, and I was letting my anger get the best of me "I just want to be normal Lee" I whispered "You are normal. There's nothing wrong with you. You're perfect...remember that" she whispered as she kept softly scratching the back of my neck

"Hey what's going on! I heard something shatter" I looked up to see Kenson come to my side. I then looked to see that my lamp is what had shattered "She's having some kind of tic attack but it hasn't gone away yet"

I looked to him still shaking, ticking, and crying "Please help me Keni.*tic* Make it stop*tic*" I lunged toward him. He wrapped his arms around me as I placed my head into his neck and cried "I-I don't know what to do, Sissy. I'm gonna get Mommy and Dad" He released me and jogged out of my room "I'm sorry for yelling *tic* at you." I spoke softly trying not to release that anger again. It's not her fault

"No it's absolutely ok. You're just having a rough morning." She said as she rubbed my hand "No, that doesn't give me a reason to lash out at you. You've been *tic* nothing but amazing to me. *tic*" she wiped my eyes and kissed me on the cheek "I love you *tic*"

"I love you"She smiled at me "Hey kiddo, how you feeling?" My dad said "Like shit*tic* and I won't s-stop ticking and shaking" He looked to Kenson for an answer then looked at the shattered lamp and mess on the floor "You did that?" He asked pointing to it

I slowly shook my head "*tic*S-sorry I'm just s-scared, Dad. I don't know *tic*what's happening to me" I started to pluck the rubber band faster and harder as I started to rock back and forth "Hey baby, it's ok you're going to be perfectly fine" I started to feel this pain in my arm and stomach "It hurts mommy"

"What hurts baby?" I started to move around. I screamed out in pain "Everything! *tic* It hurts!" I started to sweat "Dad what's happening to her!?" Kenson yelled. They laid me down on the floor and it started to become to much. It was to much pain

I lifted my chest off the floor and shut my eyes closed "Knoxy, you gotta tell me what hurts! Where's it hurt the most" I grabbed my stomach as it started to hurt even more. Kenson ripped my shirt open "Cmon that's my *tic* favorite shirt" I groaned

"Uh guys that wasn't there about five minutes ago" I looked down to see a dark black bruise. I lifted up my sleeves to my now ripped shirt. My veins looked dark. Like a dark black "Yeah that wasn't there either" Rainlee said

I screamed out again "It hurts! Make it stop!" My voice started to crack my eyes were burning along with my arms and body in general "Call 9-1-1!" My dad said. I kept shaking and tensing up in pain. I closed my eyes shut tightly "Baby look at me" I opened my eyes back up "You're going to get through this. I know it hurts, trust me I know but just hold on" she grabbed my hand

I banged my head on the floor and nodded. Kenson ran back into my room back to my side "There on there way! I told Kailor what's going on and told Sutton to stay outside"

"This can't be from my*tic* Tourette's. I haven't-" I paused to make the pain go away. "I haven't *tic* hit myself or gotten hit!" I groaned out again.

Kailor comes into the room and his eyes go wide "Whats happening!"

"I'm in *tic* fucking pain! That's *tic* what's happening!" Lee grabbed my hand again and I squeezed her hand. "What's going to happen to her?" Kailor asked. My mother looked at him and shrugged before opening we mouth to speak

"I-I don't know Kai. I don't know, but she'll be ok"

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