Lacuna

chpt.42

June 5, 1999

Diary,
Still no news about Harry. He's been gone for nearly a month and Hogwarts isn't the same anymore with him gone. I've been spending more time with Hermione and Ron and they're both so tired looking for him. The boys are slowly recovering from Draco's death. I often visit Narcissa at the manor and she's constantly baking all sorts of sweets and eating tomato soup.

Andromeda drops by often, now that Lucius and Bellatrix are gone they spend time together now after years. Andromeda never got to meet Draco but Narcissa is always telling her stories about him. It hurts seeing her like that but it's good she's spending time with old family.

They almost share the same fate, both of their children were killed and Andromeda's husband was killed and Lucius might as well be dead. They have each other now.

Narcissa has been funding the ministry for better equipment and more advanced aurors to help on the lookout for Harry. She inherited so much money so she might as well blow it all on the best things possible. The both of us are sending in money to Azkaban for better security as well as Hogwarts.

I've been getting reports from St. Mungo's saying my parents are very slowly getting better. They're talking in full sentences now and have been placed somewhere different on the physiatrics floor meaning they're no longer in an all white padded room at all times.

Once I graduate I'm visiting them everyday and I'm going to help them get better so I can bring them back home at the manor. Life is slowly getting better but life is no longer going to be the same for Narcissa or for anybody if Harry doesn't show up sometime soon. I hope he's alright and alive somewhere, if he doesn't love me anymore and just left. Fine. That's okay, he's happy.

But if he's fucking dead, I don't even know how I'll react, or Hermione, or the entire Weasley family. I'm really struggling here trying to convince myself everything is alright but I don't know anymore...I feel like he would've at least came back to say goodbye to his friends or even pick up some of his stuff.

I don't fucking know.

I just really hope everything gets better eventually.

Cordelia.

June 20, 1999

Diary,
Narcissa sent Molly Weasley money to redo the entire burrow to pay her respects for the loss of her son and to make up for the time her deranged sister lit it up. Molly was so happy she fainted. I don't view Ginny as a threat anymore either, I view her as a friend now and she no longer had feelings for Harry.

She hasn't for a long time since her and Luna Lovegood are currently dating. Something I never suspected but I'm also not surprised? She got excepted onto the Holy Head Harpies quidditch team. Yes, I am so fucking jealous but I went with her to buy a new broom. (I bought for her because I have absolutely no idea to do with all this fucking money.)

I also found out Alice and Frank Longbottom have been getting close with my parents while at St. Mungo's. I guess they do arts and crafts together and Neville and I often talk about what they could possibly be thinking or doing in there. We send them letters very frequently, even if they don't get read them or understand them it comforts us that they know we care.

Ever since Lucius' trial and Draco's death, everyone is getting along again. After the war everyone was still pretty traumatized and constantly kept to themselves but now people are branching out to make new friends. The great hall is full of life now and finally, everyone is being pieced together.