(Seven Deadly Sins, Ban x reader) Waiting For The End

36. Thoughts

(Y/n) pov

"Ok (y/n) for now on you have to say whatever you're thinking out loud because I'll know what you're thinking anyway" Ban tells me,

"But it's more embarrassing," I whined,

"How?" Ban raises an eyebrow,

"I... because I, for reasons that I don't completely know how to explain because I'm not good at wording." I say with a pout,

"Just cast the spell already." Ban chuckled,

"Only if I get to put you under the spell to." I tell him,

"What why?!" He panicked,

"It would make me feel a lot better." I gave him a big cheesy smile.

"Fine," he sighed,

"Ok but this spell doesn't technically make us say all our thoughts it just forces us to talk when there's silence." I explain,

"Close enough," Ban says then I put us both under the the spell that I've only used for interrogations.

"I can't wait to find out all your dark secrets." I giggled,

"I don't have any that you don't know." Ban says,

"Then I can't wait to find out about all of your light secrets." I smile,

"My light secrets?" Ban chuckled,

"Yeah like, what sins have you wanted to sleep with?" I ask,

"Mostly the elephant sin but I'm pretty sure all of them at one point in time." he answered,

"Really?! What about when king was in his big smelly form?" I giggle,

"1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8" ban started counting,

"What are you doing?" I ask,

"I don't want to answer that so I'm distracting myself."

"That's cheating," I complain,

"Fine then, I'll just ask you the same question what sin have you wanted to sleep with?" Ban asks,

"Diane, Ban and gowther" I answer,

"Why gowther?" He seemed surprised,

"Gowther's so pretty" I tell Ban making him laugh but after he stopped one of us had to say what we were thinking.

"(Y/n) do you really love me? every time I've heard you say it you say it in passed tence." Ban says,

"Of course I love you." I say then Immediately cover my mouth.

"Why don't you want me to know? Are you mad that I didn't let Danny kill you?" He asks,

"No... I don't think so." I tell him,

"Then why?" He says,

"I was scared of betraying Danny." I explain,

"You were scared of betraying him!? He tried to kill you!" Ban yells,

"It wasn't his fault." I respond quietly,

"How?!" He shouts,

"He was manipulated, he thought I killed every one in the (l/n) kingdom." I stay quiet,

"He tried to kill you" he lowered his voice slightly.

"People believe whatever lie there told first unless there's proof against it." I say
"There isn't any real proof I wasn't the red demon that destroyed my home and the fairy kings forest, I could have manipulated your memories so you would believe you met and fell in love with me." I explain,

"Stop!" Ban yells,

"There's no proof that I even put myself under this spell that makes you talk." I tell him,

"I know when you're lying." he replies,

"You might only think that because I let you think I was lying about a few things." I say then Ban hugs me tight.

"I don't need evidence (y/n), even if you end up being some sort of monster I won't regret it. I love you and the way I feel when I'm with you right now is worth the risk." he says,

"I love you too Ban" I smile slightly with tears in my eyes.

"You're so beautiful" he tells me,

"I don't think so" I shake my head,

"If only you could see yourself through my eyes" he smiles,

"That's just because you're so tall that's like the best angel to look at me." I giggle,

"I'm obviously not the only person to think you're beautiful, and I didn't mean just the way you look" he says then sits on the ground
"You still look pretty good from this angle." he smirks,

"What do you mean not just the way I look?" I ask,

"Your amazing (y/n), all the things you've done for others, cooking for them, singing for them, fighting for them, I just wish you would live for them. Just imagine how much of a difference you could make if you really tried " he tells me,

"Ban I... its still to painful to live, whenever I help someone it gets a little easier but it's not enough." I reply,

"Are you in that much pain right now?" Ban asks worried standing up to hug me again.

"I... no" I say hugging him back,

"Is it because of me?" He asks,
"I was only going to ask why, but this sp-" Ban says,

"I understand and you're right, I don't feel so bad because you're with me right now." I tell him,

"If you don't fee bad when you're with me can't we just stay like this forever?" Ban asks,

"I'm scared" I reply,

"Scared of what?" He says worried,

"Ugh I never wanted you to find out." I hold my head,

"Find out about what?" He asks,

"That I'm completely in love with you and when we're together like this where we're not spending the whole time talking about what happened in our past, I don't feel like shit." I explain,

"Why don't you want me to know?" he asks worried,

"Because I'm scared this is my only chance to get out of this world and I'm scared of how I feel when I'm not with you." I answer,

"I don't ever want to leave your side." Ban tells me,

"But how long do you think that would last?" I ask,

"(Y/n) I wanted to drink the water from the fountain of youth for you! So I could spend the rest of eternity with you, I've always wanted to be with you forever... except when you got erased from my memory but that doesn't count" he tells me,

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