Ban POV
"Baan y-you're never g-going to win Diane's party w-was the bestest!" (y/n) tells me after she stumbled in our room and I catch her before she falls
"Careful" I tell her before laying her on my bed
"The booooze didn't t-taste very good but th-there sure was a lot of it* she hiccups
"W-why are you shtill awake?" She asked
"I couldn't sleep" I say quietly
"W-Why not?" She says half asleep
"I'm just thinking to much" I answer pulling a blanket over her shoulders
"Thinking about what?" She says trying to find a pillow
"Just about how I don't know what to do without your wired face bugging me all the time" I hand her a pillow
"My weird face!" She adorably pouts
"Yeah what would I do without it around" I chuckle
"Y-you would bee f-fine if you kill me you could used E-endarah tooo revive e-elaine and whoever you want t-temporarily" she explained my eyes widened for a second at the new information
"I wasn't talking about your death!" I tell her with my hand in a fist
"But we c-can see each all the times e-even if I'm married" she says
"I don't think so (y/n)" I say
"W-why not? I-I can teleport to you w-whenever I want" her eyes start to water slightly
"I know, but it will be... different" I try to explain
"I m-miss the w-way we were" she yawned before falling asleep
"Me too" I smile for a second then a deep frown gets put on my face before I lay in the hammock
'Damn it!' I yell in my head my fingernails digging into my palm almost breaking the skin
'If I kill (y/n) then I would get all of her memories. I will know exactly how she feels about me and all the reasons she's done the things she's done everything she has done!' My eyes start watering
'Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!' I repeat over and over in my head practically meditating, trying not to think about (y/n)s beautiful eyes, lips, hair, nose, arms, hands, fingers and body or how easy it would be to just walk over and kiss her right now
'I have only kissed her once!' The palm of my hand start bleeding as I desperately try not to cry
"Ban are you ok?" I hear (y/n)s angelic sleepy voice and I didn't realize how much time has past
"(Y/n)! Why are you up?" I ask
"Answer my question first!" She tells me
"I'm fine! why are you up?" I say
"Ban we're the same age! don't treat me like a child!" She pouts, like a kid
"please tell me the truth, what's wrong?" She asked
"It's just with your wedding in a day I've been thinking about elaine more" I quickly tell her
"Oh... is there anything I could do to help? I wish I could revive her again, but her scar is still there." she frowns
"No, no don't worry about me" I try to smile for her
"Ban, I'd do anything for you, you know that right?" She tells me
"I know you think you would do anything for me, and I know you would die for me. But you would die for anyone" I chuckle
"No, Ban! I would die for anyone else! but you're one of the few people I would live for if I thought it would make you happy!"she tells me making sure she gets her point across
"What if that is the only way to make me happy?" I ask
"I'd first tell you that's not a very healthy way to think" she giggles
"But then I'd stay alive for as long as you stay alive with me" I look at her knowing she's telling the truth
"But, Mr. Ban since I believe that my being alive mostly just makes you miserable. I'm still going to want you to kill me eventually" she tells me with lots of energy
"Why do you say that?" I raise an eyebrow
"Because about every time we're alone I'm complaining, crying, depressing, or really drunk. More often than not it's all four" she laughed
"You aren't anything of those now" I tell her
"That's only because I'm not allowed to bitch about my problems when I'm trying to cheer you up!" She explained
"Also I'm still in a good mood! I'm getting married!" She says happily And I look down for a long minute
"(Y/n)?" I say eventually and she hums to tell me she's listening
"What would you do if I begged you to kill me? Is that included in the you would do anything for me" I ask her and her eyes widened
"To be honest... I don't know" she responds and I wait for her to continue
"I might be selfish and not kill you because of how much I love you and want you to kill me... but if I saw that life was really only causing you pain and misery and killing you is the only way you could be happy with elaine... I would do anything I could to try to convince myself to let you go" she tells me
"You are going to be happy, right? Happy with Danny?" I ask
"I really hope so, I don't know what I would do if things didn't work out between me and Danny" she frowns
"I really love him" she says making my chest hurt again
"But me and Danny haven't even planned our future together and that scares me a little more than it should, I remember we wanted kids when we were younger but I don't even know if I can because my body can't change, even if I could I would have to watch my children grow up and die or if somehow being immortal could be passed down that would also mean they would never be born because they couldn't age!" She rants
"(Y/n)!" I try to get her to snap out of it
"Danny will understand if you can't have kids and if one day you really want them there's always adoption" I tell her
"I-I know I just..." she started
"There's no need for you to look for a way out or a reason he wouldn't want to be with you, you're going to make each other happy" I say
"See Ban all I do is bitch about my problems! I barely even helped you!" She complained
"You're getting married soon you're aloud to rant about your fears" I tell her
"Bull shit! all I ever do is complain about my problems to you. You know you can tell me to shut the fuck up sometimes!" She says, I put my hand on her shoulder and look her in the eyes
"(Y/n), shut the fuck up" I say keeping a straight face
"Thank you," she takes a deep breath
"Is there anything else you want to talk about?" She asks
"Yes, but I'm going to make breakfast" I say before walking out of the room hearing (Y/n) yell at me
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