(Seven Deadly Sins, Ban x reader) Waiting For The End

10. Elaine

(Y/n) pov

I lay in the hammock, trying to process what's reality and what was just a dream, after freshly waking up from a nightmare that had closely related to events I wish I could have changed.

I try to get myself to stop crying. Being around Ban again has made my mind trapped in the past. I wish I was as lucky as he is to have no memory of it.

"(Y/n), what are you doing still up?" I hear Ban's voice as I'm blinded by the hallway light until he shuts the door behind him.

"I'm not still up, I just woke up." I try to discreetly wipe my tears.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," I sniffle, making my lie more obvious.

"Regretting not saying goodbye to your villager friends?" He sits on his bed.

"I said I'm fine." I bite my lip.

"You know you can just tell me you don't want me to attempt to comfort you. You don't have to lie." He sighs.

"That was supposed to be comforting?" I force a laugh.

"I said it was an attempt... so, you thinking about regrets things you wish you could change?" He asked

"Yeah," I sighed

"Me too," he replied

"Elaine?" I asked

"Yeah..." his voice comes out a little rough, so he clears his throat.

"How do you spell her name?" I ask, sitting up letting my feet touch the floor.

"Why?"

"There's just something I'd like to do for you." I stand up, picking up one of my bags off of the floor.

"What are you going to do?" He asks before I pull out a dagger,Endarah.
"What are you going to do?" He repeats a little more demanding.

"I can let you see Elaine again, just temporarily. E-L-A-I-N-E, right?"

"I don't know, that doesn't sound wrong. What do you mean I can see her again?!"

I sigh, not in the mood, to explain everything.
"I can give her the opportunity to see you. The amount of time she'll be able to visit is inconsistent, five minutes up to five hours, usually around twenty minutes. Unless you pissed her off, you'll get to see her. Do you want to see her now, or do you need to fix... all that." I gesture to his messy hair and wrinkled grease stained apron.

"Now." He throws off the apron and runs a hand through his hair.

"Ok," I use my dagger as a pen to write elaine's name into my forearm.

"Ban!" A blonde girl shouts, wrapping her arms around Ban the exact moment I finish the E.

"I'll let you two have some privacy." I excuse myself, holding the fresh, bleeding wound on my forearm.

"Thank you." I hear Ban, just before I shut the door behind me.

"Shit!" I stumble back into the wall, watching the name Elaine continue to bleed on my forearm. It hurts.

Ban pov

"You can revive me?" elaine eyes widen with her reply.

"Yes, sort of, I don't know..." I avoid her eyes.

"What do you mean?" She tilts her head.

"I talked to the goddesses and they told me that if I kill (y/n) then they would bring you back." It gets harder to take in full breaths.

"you mean the woman who was in here?" Elaine asks, so I nod.
"The same woman I often hear you think about." She frowns a little.

"I just, I want to bring you back. I want to travel the world with you. I want to be able to see you everyday." The way I feel saying these words makes my dry eyes seem illogical.

"But you can't kill her..." her voice is soft, but neutral.

I take in a deep shaky breath.
"I want to be able to. I promise, her life isn't worth yours to me. I want you back more than anything."

"Ban..." She gives my hand a squeeze.
"Maybe it's time you let me go."

"What?!" I stumble back, pulling away from her.

"I love you, but if you can move on, I need to let you." She start to cry.

"Move on?! What the hell do you mean by that?!" I search her face for answers.

"If you can love (y/n), you need to let yourself." She sniffles.

"Love her?! What the hell are you talking about?! Elaine! I'll only ever love you! Just because I can't get myself to kill her yet doesn't mean I'll ever be able to love her!" I try to make her understand.

"Come on, Ban, I know you're not that oblivious to your feelings for her." She continued to cry.

Then it finally hit me. I'm making her cry. She's right, I have some feelings for (y/n), but I love Elaine. I love her and she's crying, and instead of comforting her, I'm just yelling.

"Elaine." I hug her.
"I love you. I'll get myself to kill (y/n), as soon as my memories are back." I tilt her head up and wipe away a tear with my thumb.

"Why can't you just let the time we had be a memory." She sighs.
"I'd end up dying in a couple thousand years even if you bring me back. You wouldn't have to worry about that with her."

"Can we stop talking about her now? I just want to enjoy the time I have with you right now." I say, wanting her to feel like I truly only want to be with her.

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