It's not that easy as it's written in the books,
To forgive one and let them off the hook.
I keep holding myself back, keep saying it's not worth it.
But then what is? Me being completely broken and alone?
I tell myself, just one smile, just this once,
I put on a blindfold, bcoz i dont want to admit it's you, I don't want to admit the things you've done.
I am just wondering if there is still a part of you that i once knew,
I don't want this to be true.
It hurts whenever i keep defending you in front of others,
Knowing that you didn't do the same, knowing that you called me horrible things and when you had a chance to stop, you didn't, you went behind my back and didn't care if i was hurt.
You know what's funny?
The fact that after everything you've done, i can't be with who i want, just bcoz you are insecure,
What was everything you've done really for?
I don't want to ruin us,
But did we even exist in the first place? It just hurts and hurts.
I don't want to lose the last piece of soul i've left,
I hope even though we are gonna be over, you find the best.
I am sorry for not holding it together for longer,
But you keep making things worse, keep making me want to make it all over.
I know this is hurting you but it will soon be okay,
You'll move on, you'll find your way.
