oh, how I hate you,
every single inch, everything you do.
hate how your hand fits perfectly in mine,
hate how you are my rain's sunshine.
I hate every single thing you say,
hate that you cant stay.
I knew it was hate when your voice had that effect on me,
I knew it was hate because you made my heart feel heavy.
it can only be hate,
then why do I still wait?
I hate that your voice guides me in silence,
I hate this distance.
I am glad this isn't love,
because if it were, you wouldn't love me back, even from up above.
I hate you so much, it pains,
sometimes we all don't get sunshine after rain.
[-july 14th 2021]
