Our Sweet Past (Completed)

OSP 10

"I can be your number two just please don't leave me."

And with that...

I burst out on crying. My two hands are covering my face. Oh ghad! This man, This man is too good for me. What did I do to make him love me?

"We need this patrick. Trust me." I said between my tears.

"Trust you?! Trust you sheonelle? You are breaking up with me! How can I trust you? Hell!"

Mas lalo pa akong umiyak. His words was breaking me. His right. How can he trust me if I could not trust my self? This is the hurful decision that I'm going to do.

Naramdaman ko ang pag yakap niya sakin
"Hush... Baby. Sorry, sorry." He whispered.

No patrick. I am sorry.

Sorry if I'm coward. Sorry if I can't make this relationship work. Sorry If I'm too young for you. I'm really Sorry

"Patrick. Let go. Don't make this hard for me."

Lumuwag ang pag kayap niya sakin. His jaw clenched
"You are the one who making this hard." Madiin nitong pahayag.

Umiling ako
"No patrick. I'm doing the best for us." I wiped my tears

His gaze turned on mine. As he looked at me I saw the pain on his eyes and its killing me.

Bakit ba namin kailangang pag daanan to? Hindi ba pwedeng pabayaan nalang nila kami and mind their own business? Bakit ba kailangan nila kaming sirain? Loving is not a crime! pero bakit pag dating samin Krimen na to? Why they making our relationship big deal to them?

Why do they need to judge me? us?

Hinawakan niya ang balikat ko. He lifted up my chin
"Sheonelle you love right?" Puno ng takot ang tanong niyang iyon

Ofcourse I love him kaya ko nga ito gagawin dahil ayokong tuluyan siya masira, ayos lang kahit ako huwag lang siya

Humugot siya ng malalim na hininga
"Why are you hurting me?" Lumandas ang luha sa kanyang pisngi "You know that the moments we shared are the best thing on my life! So why are you throwing that away?" His voice cracked as his tears flowed.

I looked at him. I carassed his cheek and In that moment I knew that my flag was finally down. I surrender.
"Patrick..." I hugged him

Akala ko kaya ko. Akala ko kaya kong iwanan siya but Its hard as hell. If they call this selfish then I am Selfish. I can't just watch him hurting like this. I can't
"I'm sorry. I thought I can but I can't." I heared him sobbed. "Patrick hush. We're okay now." I assured him

"Patrick? Can you fight for me?" I looked at him straight on his eyes.

"Ofcourse." He replied full of pride

Nakahinga ako.

"was it about Ms alejandra?"

Tumango ako.

"You expect that I can't fought for you?"

Tumango ulit ako

"Silly." He pinched my nose "Ofcourse I can. I promise." A smile flash on his face

"Thankyou! Thankyou patrick!"

"I love you" He chuckled

"I love you more." I giggled

Umiling siya
"No, I love you more."

"I love you so much." I smiled and kiss him on his cheek.

"Okay. You win." Patrick laughed

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"Hindi ba sabi ko sayp huwag la nang makikipag kita sa kanya?" Malamig na tinig ng aking lola ang sumalubong sa akin

"La..Sorry po." pero hindi ko kaya.

Hinablot niya ang aking braso at marahas nitong hinila papunta sa aking kwarto.

"La sorry na po. Masakit na." I cried.

"Are you out of your mind! Ano bang sinabi ko sayo?! Ang sabi ko hiwalayan mo siya at tapusin mo na to! Gaano ka ba kabobo at hindi mo yan maiintindihan!"

Napahagulgol ako. I want to scream right on her face that I Don't deserve this. Bakit ba ganito siya? Hindi niya ba naiintindihan na nagmamahal lang ako? Bakit ba napaka kitid na utak niya.

"Saan ba kami nagkulang sa pagpapalaki sayo? Binigay ko naman lahat ng kailangan mo! Bakit ba kailangan mong magpaka-gaga diyan sa lalaking iyan? You giving a shame on our clan! You are a shame in our clan! So stop this nonsense! A---

"You don't understand la! I love him! Bakit ba kailangan niyo akong parusahan ng ganito! Sa tingin mo ba kung nahahanap ko ang pagmamahal na kailangan ko sa inyo ay maghahanap pa ako sa iba?" I cried

"La! All my life I've been looking for your love, For papa's love and for mama's love! Pero hindi ko iyon mahanap. Yes you feed me with the material that I need pero iyon lang yon! You are very strict to then point na masasakal na ako at hindi na kita maintindihan. At si mama at papa. Wala sila dito kaya hindi ko nararamdaman na mahal nila ako! pero kay patrick, Kay patrick ko nahanap ang pagmamahal na iyon. Lola, he's a good man. He treated me the way I want. He loves me the way I want so you can't blame me."

Tumakbo ako palabas ng bahay habang umiiyak

Hindi nila alam kung gaano kahirap ang lumaki ng walang pamilya. Oo andyan si lola pero iba parin ang pagmamahal ng isang lola at sa isang ina at ama. That's why no one has the right to judge me! Because they don't know what it feels to have a broken family.

Pero okay na ako na naman eh. Its from my past but the problem is.. Nang nakahanap na ako ng makaka-buo sakin ay wawasakin na naman nila?

Ofcourse I will fight. I'll fight till the last breath of my life