Loki's forbidden love

Sands of time

The next few weeks were hard. Recovery wasn't so difficult, I spent a few days in a wheel chair and the rest of the weeks in crutches. My stab wound was healing better and my leg felt fine: only my ribs caused me discomfort when I sat up or breathed in large breaths.

The thing that hurt the most though was my heart. My heart aches for him. For Loki. He left just like that and never gave me an context as to why. It also hurt because I wanted to hate him so much. He had messed up everything for me and Thor, stabbed me in the chest and then took off without even a kiss let alone an apology. I really do want to hate him but I can't. I think I love him: and that drive me insane.

Thor said he wanted to talk about this but he just avoided me . I wouldn't even know what to say if he did want to speak. 'Sorry I got kidnapped and fell in love with your evil brother' 'sorry I didn't break Loki's leg when you threw me across the room and broke my ribs'. What did he expect me to do about it? I needed to apologise for not telling him the connection but I can't change what happened, I can't change that I love his brother.

***
I decided to go out and buy me and Thor's favourite food from the market and try and use it as a piece offering. I walked back to the castle ready to give it to him and try and mend our broken bond. I stepped into the main hall to see him stood there , dead still, staring at an empty display case. "Thor? What's going on?" He turned around , his expressions mixed with horror and anger and fear. "It's gone"

What did he mean ? "Thor what's gone? Was there something important in the case?" He stormed up to me and grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and lifted me into the air. "THIS IS YOUR FAULT LEIA! If you hadn't brought him here we wouldn't be in this mess!" He soon realised what he had done and put me down. Tears started to swell in my eyes and I looked at the floor in shame.

"Thor I really am sorry but I got kidnapped for god sakes! I mean what did you expect me to be doing? Having a lovely little holiday in a hot country enjoying myself? " I lifted up my sleeve to reveal the cuts and scars that were left from what Loki had done to me . "Look at this. Do you see this Thor?! This is what was happening while I was with him."

Thor's face dropped and he frowned. "Leia I- I didnt think he'd do such a thing. Why would he..."
I stared deep into his eyes. Finally : I can read him again. "When I tried to escape or when I didn't do what he asked of me he would try and make me and it usually ended up with me getting hurt. He'd always apologise but then he'd go and do it again a few days later" I rolled my sleeves back down and sat on the floor, my ribs aching from my heavy breathing.

"I have to apologise for not telling you about the connection but it really wasn't relevant. I just want things back to normal" he stopped and shot a look towards the empty display case. "Leia as much as it would be nice I don't think we will ever go back to normal now" he paused, deep in thought " the sand is gone and Loki has it. That was his plan all along. To use you to catch me with my guard down and take the sand while I was trying to stop you bleeding out"

So there was a plan. I never thought he would use me to manipulate his brother. I thought his plan for me was more than that. It's pathetic really. Pathetic but smart. Mischievous. Of course. "What do we do!" He took my hand and helped me up, bringing me to my crutches that were leaning against the door frame. "The sand is the last remaining ashes of the most powerful demon to ever exist. If we don't get it back then Loki might be able to resurrect her and kill us all."

This sent me into panic. RESURRECT? EVIL DEMON? suddenly I wasn't breathing. My legs started to shake and took out from under me, I dropped into Thor's arms. "Breathe Leia cmon Breathe" my ribs ached from the violent deep breaths I was taking in. I recovered and went to go get some pain meds.

***
We had to find Loki. I just didn't have a single clue where he was. Then it hit me. My mother was a witch, maybe I could use me and Loki's connection to get to him. I sat down and put on my favourite old record that my mum played and tried to focus on him. An image flashed in my mind: I had never seen this place before but it was on earth!? I could tell by the technology, cars and busses and planes, most planets travelled by spaceship.

I had to find a way to get to earth. And I can't tell Thor..........