Meaghan Walter and Kate Zimmer

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Kate's POV ⚠️TW Anxiety, Depression, Cutting⚠️

Meg and I went to back to sleep around 4:15 A.M and I figured that we would sleep for a long time. I was proven wrong when I woke up and no one was next to me. Not panicking immediately I waited a few minutes for Meg to come back into the room. 5 minutes turned to 10 so I decided to go look for them myself. Walking out of the room I looked in the bathroom first. No Meaghan. Living room. No Meg. Kitchen. Nothing. Dining room. Nothing. Outside. Nothing except their car. Running back up to Meg's room I noticed that she had taken shoes and their phone. I snatched my phone from the charger and called them. Instant voicemail. I kept trying again and again until I finally decided to call Kasper.
Phone call
Kasper: Hey what- slow down what are you saying?
Kate: I woke up and Meg was gone
Kasper: Have you called her?
Kate: Of course I've called them I'm not dumb
Sorry I'm just stressed.
Kasper: I bet there is a good reason they aren't answering. I'll come over and while I'm driving I'll call Meg. Okay?
Kate: Yea okay but I'm freaking out.
End of phone call

Ending the phone call I went back to panicking. I didn't want to call Meg because what if they just didn't want to talk to me. Was showing her my scars a good idea? They seemed grateful that I did but I could be wrong. Did I trigger them? Probably. Trying to get out of my thoughts I grabbed my phone, figuring I would call Sam and see if they knew were Meg was. Scrolling through my contacts I realized that I had forgotten to get Sam's phone number so there was no way to text or call them. I was on the verge of a panic attack when there was a knock on the door. "Uh come in?"
It felt weird saying that considering it wasn't my room. I must have looked pretty distressed because the instant Kasper walked into the room she engulfed me in a hug. Pulling back I saw Kasper was looking extremely panicked which scared me.
"I couldn't get a hold of them. Have you told Sam?" Kasper informed me.
"I don't have Sam's number."
They looked surprised but a bit of hope was on their face. Pulling out her phone they clicked on a contact named "Sammy👀" and put the phone on speaker. A second later Sam answered but before she could say anything Kasper panicked and said,
"haveyouseenmeaghanwecantfindher."

Sam's voice replied in a panicked and confused voice,  "Hey hey what's wrong?"

Kasper took a deep breathe to calm down and asked, "Have you seen Meaghan? They aren't answering their phone and Kate says when she woke up she wasn't there."

There was a small pause before Sam answered, "She's with me, it's one of their bad days so she came over."
Relief washed over me and I let out an involuntary sigh. My relief was short lived as I started thinking about why how they were having a bad day. I most have triggered her and now they are having a bad day. Before I could think I muttered,
"Can I talk to Meg?"
Meg had to be in the room because there was a short pause before Sam replied,
"Meg can't talk right now but I'll bring them home soon."
I nodded even though they couldn't see me.
"Okay can you tell them I'm sorry." I muttered.
Kasper said goodbye to Sam and hung up. Kasper grabbed my wrist to stop me from pacing. I had to move when I was anxious and most of the time I didn't even know I was moving.
"Hey Kate she's okay with Sam." Knowing that was true still didn't help my anxiety as I thought about all the ways I could have upset them. Kasper had to know what I was thinking because they quickly continued, "Meg has bad days sometimes it's no one's fault. Especially you. But when they come home just know they won't talk tons because it's exhausting for her."

Her words comforted me slightly and I thanked them.
"I have to go to work but I'll see you later?" Kasper said.
"Yea of course thank you."
She just nodded before walking out the door. Guilt was still there but I tried to brush it off as I reached for my phone. Scrolling again through my contacts I clicked on one contact and waited for her to answer.
"Hey dummy how is it in Chicago?" Kylie's voice rang out and I felt myself relax a tiny bit.
"I showed Meg my scars."
I stated hesitantly. Kylie and I don't really talk about my self harm but she knows I never show people my scars. There was a small silence as Kylie processed what I had said.
"Are you okay?" Kylie finally asked. I honestly didn't really know how to answer the question so instead I tried explaining the situation without telling Kylie about Meg's self harm.
"We started talking about our pasts and I uh told them about my self harm. I don't know if I should have though because I woke up alone."
Why the hell had I shown Meg my scars? It was selfish and I shouldn't have burdened them like that. Looking down at my arm I started pacing again while continuing to talk,
"Well they are having a bad day and I think I may have triggered them. She's coming back to the house soon. Should I give her space?"
At this point I was more talking to myself but was glad to hear Kylie respond,
"I think you should talk to Meg about how you feel but right now you need to try to calm down."
Kylie knew that the best way to calm me down was to distract me and so that's what she did. She started talking about her morning and other random things and pretty soon I was calmer. I was still pacing but I felt more relaxed and jumped when their was a small knock at the door.
"Come in."
It still felt wrong but I didn't really know what else to say. Making eye contact with Meaghan I quickly said goodbye to Kylie and walked up to her.
"Hey are you okay? Did I do something wrong?"
Meg looked startled for a second before saying,
"Bad day?"
It was like they were trying to see if I would be okay with that answer. I wanted to know more but I wasn't going to push it so instead I hugged her. The hug didn't last long but there were so many emotions in it. Pulling away Meg jumped onto the bed and scurried to make room for myself. Accepting that we would probably be here for the rest of the day I laid down with Meg.