~Letters~

From Simon to Clary/ short answer from Clary

Dear Clary,
Who are you, really?
Who am I?
You told me that you once were my best friend, but shouldn't I feel something? You know, episodes of you and me being together, having fun together: shouldn't they remind me of our bond?
Sometimes a memory comes, and it is beautiful and painful at the same time: you and me hand in hand with rucksacks on our backs, going home after school; you painting with me watching a remake of some stupid movie; me with a "Made in Brooklyn" t-shirt, laughing for something you said. And then it becomes strange, because images of graves and blood, towers made of glass, black tattoos..
I don't know what those are, and it scares me.
If we were so important, what did I do to forget it all? I know you're being sincere, but it's hard to believe. And if it were real, I firmly believe that it won't be as it was before: we were best friends because of the memories we had, because of the experiences we shared...the love, the pain, all the things we felt were real, but that's the past. I'm not that boy you say that I was, and surely you're not that girl anymore: years have passed and it took just a mere second to throw it all away. I wish I had met that girl, the one who didn't know about supernatural, the one who had good music tastes, the one who was addicted to black coffee, the one who argued with her mother. I'm sure months ago these things would have made me laugh, but now I can't feel anything. Am I broken?
And is this the life I really wanted to live? Like a plain human, with flaws and mistakes, but also love and a family?
You told me so may details about who I once was, and who I wanted to be, but it seems like I've never been Simon Lewis, like I've never been him.
Who is he?
Simon

Dear Simon,
You won't ever be able to understand the loss I'm feeling, the pain I wake up with every morning. Of each day, of each week.
Maybe you're right, we're not those two little buddies anymore, but that was real.
It's like someone out there wanted to make me suffer even more by sending you to me without you remembering anything about our relationship. It's good you're back, but seeing you everyday, without being able to be the Clary I could be only with you, it's the worst situation I've ever experienced and I bet it'll never change, it'll just become worse day by day .
What did I do to be such a bad friend? I should have stopped you. I should have.

"Inspiration?
Nah, I just wanted to write.
See ya people <3 take care!
-Rebs"