Lorenzo Berkshire/ 3 Words 8 Letters

chapter 22

~anything and everything~

*lorenzo*

Nothing was the same.

It had only been 2 days since the incident with Maria happend yet it replays in my head on and on.

I knew I shouldn't had bothered her, all I did was push her away, again.

How is it I manage to always push her away.

I felt like I had to help her, I had to be there for her, I just couldn't help it.

Recently I kept distance from her, the guilt and ashamed feeling was over bearing for me.

The Winter ball is coming up and I can't see myself going with anyone else but Maria.

I just know Daphne is waiting for my proposal. She's been hinting for it, causally bringing up the ball here and there.

I originally planned to break up with Daphne sooner but each time I couldn't bring myself to do it.

Was I just desperate, It's not that I'm falling for Daphne. Just her being there kind of plays in my favor.

I know that sounds bad but I'm lonely.

Lorenzo Berkshire a year ago wouldn't be so hung up on a stupid girl.

I take that back Maria is no stupid girl. She is brilliant, she's everything I've ever wanted in a woman.

I crave her, not being with her drives me insane.

I used to be confident, get the girls I wanted, I had everything, until Maria came.

That showed I didn't have anything because nothing mattered if I didn't have her. I would give up anything and everything for Maria.

The girl who has me wrapped around her little finger and doesn't even know it.

"You alright?" Blaise interrupts my thoughts.

Blaise is constantly checking up on me. I have a feeling he knows what's bothering me but chooses to not bring it up.

"Of course not, the guys in love." Draco rolls his eyes.

I guess it's that bloody obvious my feelings for Maria? I thought I was pretty good at hiding things for the most part.

"Look man, she's single now. I say shoot your shot" Blaise replies.

"She's what?" I ask nearing spitting out my water, I had to process what came out his mouth.

"You didn't hear? Her and Diggory are done." Blaise shrugs like it wasn't nothing new.

A wave of happiness just flew through my body hearing those words.

I forget Blaise always seems to know all the scoop. He may be quiet but that's what fools you, he knows literally everything.

It got me thinking, maybe this isn't the end, but only the beginning.

I was stunned, I mean i thought they were happy together? What happened..