Lorenzo Berkshire/ 3 Words 8 Letters

chapter 1

~don't get too attached~

*Maria*

It had been two days, two bloody days since I was told I'll be having to attend this stupid school.

Two days since my father decided it was finally time for me to attend Hogwarts.

I don't see why after being homeschooled practically my whole life I have to attend Hogwarts now, I mean I already know all the basics what more do I need to know. I just don't see why I am needed to be there now?

Maybe it's for the best, I could use the distraction and the idea of having a cleaned fresh start does sound pretty nice. I just have to remind myself one thing and that thing only, Don't get too attached. I've had to learn that the hard way unfortunately. Being a Mikaelson has its perks and definitely its advantages but it also has it's disadvantages and negatives.

The Mikaelsons have numerous of enemy's created over the years, this is why I have to live hidden and secretive and the reason I've been homeschooled most of my life. But this year will be different and I'm hoping a good kind of different at that.

At least I'll have Alice to be with me, she's like my other half, my sister I honestly don't see where I'd be without her. She's the only person who knows me inside and out. The only person I can and always will trust.

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Its nights like these that make me happy. Sitting in the living room journaling while looking out the window hearing a mix of rain with the fireplace crackling.

Late at night, it feels like an escape from reality. Two days, two more days and I'll be there. I'll be at Hogwarts, all these thoughts keep rushing into mind, I've never been somewhere with so many people.

I mean what is the normal for 16 year old wizards? What do they do for fun what kind of things do they like? What if I don't understand what they're teaching, what if they all hate me for my families doing in the past.

I don't know much about the wizarding world at all actually, I mean yeah I've done spells and positions before but the Mikalesons aren't like the average wizarding family. My whole family attended Hogwarts but things have changed. I'm needed to be watched and looked after at all times for my family's reputation.

When most people hear the name mikaleson they immediately think of monsters. Truth is not all vampires are bad most are just misunderstood. One of my biggest fears is to turn into a vampire its something that frightens me to this day.

You'd think me being a pureblood would've been different I would know all this stuff but Sometimes I think if i attended Hogwarts when i was originally supposed to my life would've came out better.

Maybe I wouldn't have been so damaged.

"you're still awake?" My aunt freya questions. "Maria how many times have we talked about you staying up so late, especially when you will be attending Hogwarts you need a proper sleep schedule."

She yawns coming down groggy from upstairs interrupting my thoughts. Me and freya have always been close ever since I was real small she was like a mother figure to me while growing up. I spent more time with her than my own father.

My mother died when I was born I didn't know much about her at all actually.. the only thing my father told me was she was a pureblood selfish witch/vampire from New Orleans's so I never really bother him with questioning her, he seems to always change the subject any chance I bring her up.

"Here hun what's on your mind" she takes a seat handing me a cup of warm tea. If anyone can read me its freya, she knows whenever something is on my mind or if I'm off edge. She sighs playing with the old blanket that's unraveling "it's Hogwarts isn't it?"

"I'm just not ready" i complain looking down to my journal.

"How do you know you aren't ready if you've never experienced, that's the fun in it" she nudges my shoulder trying to be as enthusiastic as possible.

All honesty her words were going one ear in and out the other, I just let her ramble on as to why I would love it, I didn't feel like shutting her down, she wouldn't get it anyway.

"I better get off to bed, I hope you do the same." she yawns kissing my forehead. I force a smile going back to the window seal to stare. Stare at the rain droplets falling from the window as I fall into a deep slumber.

No please please I'll give you anything don't h- hurt him. I beg feeling my heart sink.

He's all I have no please please
Take me h-hurt me j-just leave him out of this I'm begging you.

"I'll love you maria, always and forever" Stiles calls out as I held him in my arms covered in blood.

"No, No, no, please" I try and scream But it feels like nothing comes out. Like I'm trapped.

"Shit" I gasped shakily drenched in sweat. I stayed up awhile rushing to the restroom sink to rinse my face. Glancing at myself through the mirror I let out a sob, a silenced sob.

Will this pain ever go away, will it always be this bad? My heart felt heavy, my body felt weak, it's just always stays there, that pain never fully will leave me. I don't think I've ever had a good night's rest since the night it happend, I remember it clear as day, the day something in me changed.