Haikyuu Character X Reader Oneshots

37: Koushi Sugawara - Bodies

Note: This oneshot focuses on the beauties of body shapes.

Requested by: pockysareweebsticks

 I was a naturally slim girl and in the back of my head I knew that, however it didn't stop the paranoid thoughts about my weight and possibly being too big. I would go through phases where I'd barely eat, I'd skip meals and would throw the food I had eaten back up again in the toilet. It wasn't a pleasant phase to go through but my mind had a way of convincing myself that I needed to loose weight, that I was too large and that I should stop eating.

My friends always tried to assure me that these were things I didn't need to do and didn't need to worry about. A few of my oldest friends had witnessed the horrible phases I'd go through, but they were always there to support me. I hadn't felt that way in a long time, which was why I felt scared when the feeling I knew all too well was creeping up on me again.

It started when the guy of my dreams asked me to be his girlfriend. I accepted Koushi Sugawara in a heartbeat, the adorable silver-haired setter of Karasuno's volleyball team being the definition of perfect. I had had a crush on him for the longest time so was utterly surprised when he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I couldn't feel happier. About a month into our relationship was when I felt the phase creeping up on me again, and of course I didn't blame Koushi for it but I had a feeling it was because I was starting to feel self-conscious about my body and if my boyfriend liked it or not.

I never wanted him to find out about these realistically unhealthy stages I went through because I had a feeling he would worry more than necessary - that was just the type of person he was. It was one of the reasons I fell for him, that and the fact he was kind but also had a hyper and fun side which always made me smile. He also gave incredible hugs which was what he was doing right now, the two of us sat with a couple of his friends whilst I was snuggled against his side. I hadn't eaten yet and my mind was repeatedly telling me I wasn't hungry despite the empty feeling in my stomach. "(y/n) do you want some food?" Koushi offered his tray of lunch but I shook my head. "You've not had lunch yet though, have you?"

"It's okay Koushi, I had a few snacks at break time earlier," I lied, trying to wear a convincing smile. It seemed to work, but he assured me that the food was there if I wanted it. I just smiled at his generosity, but kept my eyes off of the food so that I wasn't tempted to take a bite. This behaviour continued for a while, him offering me little bits of his food whilst I politely turned it down, the thought of eating making me feel sick. I knew I was practically starving myself but it was to make myself skinnier, and I had managed to convince myself that that would make me more attractive.

"(y/n), seeing as it's our six month anniversary I wondered whether you'd like to do something special?" Koushi asked.

"Something special? Sure! What did you have in mind?" I asked, smiling brightly.

"How about I take you to a restaurant, there's a really nice place opened up just down the road from my house, it looks really fancy," he said, his smile making him ten times more adorable however I faltered at the idea of going out for food.

"O-oh... well I don't actually have enough money to go out to a restaurant," I lied. I knew of the place he was talking about and their food always looked so delicious, but I mentally told myself I didn't need it and I was better off without it.

"It's okay, it'll be my treat to you," he said sweetly.

"Koushi it's okay! I don't want you spending so much money on me," I said quickly, knowing that the restaurants prices were not low.