Teddy Bear (boyxboy)

Chapter 8

(Damien's POV)

I wait outside Caleb and Teddy's dorm room. I can't hear whats going on inside, and i don't make an effort to, wanting to respect their privacy. I've already fucked things up enough.

I didn't mean to make Teddy sad, or uncomfortable. I took my anger out on him. I wasn't thinking as i fired untrue insults at him, he was just an available target. But for the first time, i actually feel bad about making someone cry. I genuinely wish i could go back and change how i reacted.

My dad called me today. Thats why i was so on edge. My father and I have never had a good relationship. He and my mom and divorced, because he cheated on her, and somehow, he got full custody of me. College is my getaway from him. I wish i could say i hate the man, but i can't find it in me to. I just severely dislike him.

When everyone else was talking about Faiths father, i couldn't help but get angry. She has an amazing dad. He's supportive, and kind, and caring. Everything a father should be. I felt jealous and aggravated.

Part of me found it cute that Teddy was so invested in trying to calm me down. But my anger overrode that fond feeling, and I needed up taking it out on him. God, the look on his face after i said everything made me want to drop to my knees and plead for his forgiveness. I knew right away that i fucked up. But that didn't stop the rest of my friends from scolding me.

Faith and Ryan both took turns yelling at me, cursing me out. And Finn gave me a good slap to the face. For how tiny he is. He's got a good swing. Jack just stayed silent. For the first time in forever, he didn't need to speak to tell me how he was feeling about me in that moment. His eyes held the truth. He was disappointed in me. Hell, even I was disappointed in me.

I've taken a liking to Teddy. I've grown feelings i wish i didn't have. I can't get too attached to him. I'm a daddy dom. And although he might show signs of being a little, i can't be too sure. I've had relationships in the past that were not DDLB or CGL, and they all failed. They couldn't accept the daddy dom part of me. So now, i don't do relationships, because if i act on my feelings towards teddy, and he can't accept that side of me, I'm gonna get my heart broken.

Sometimes i slip up, because i can't help but want to care for the tiny boy. But for the most part, I'd like to think I've done a good job in making him think I'm uninterested.

The little shit is persistent though, I'll give him that.

No matter how cold I've been towards him, he still try's to befriend me. It should annoy me, but it only makes me even for food of him.

"You really fucked up. You know that?" I head Calebs voice ask me. He steps out of their dorm room, closing he door behind him.

"You don't think i know that?" I ask, aggressively. Did this bitch just come out here to make me feel worse?

"No i think you do but I'm here to say what i have to say and you're gonna listen" he exclaims, and for the first time, i don't stand my ground. Caleb rarely ever raises his voice at anyone, especially me, so the fact that he's doing it now tells me that it's not my time to fight back. I nod in response, accepting the daggers he's shooting at me with his eyes.

"Teddy is one of the nicest boys i know. I don't know what the hell is wrong with you but you have no reason to act this cold towards him. The rest of us are used to your bullshit. But Teddy isn't. He's sweet and sensitive and he cares about everyone around him. Including you. And i don't want to imagine how hard it is for him to be nice to you considering how rude you've been to him" he angrily rants, I'm about to say something, but he continues.