Binary Boyfriends

24 ~ Teenage Romance

[ Demetri's POV ]

It was the next morning, but I had stayed up all night thinking about the fight with Eli. I had always regretted that day, or I guess I just regretted never addressing that day again, but I didn't know it hurt him as much as it did.

There wasn't a day that went by that I didn't think about what it could mean, or why I had done it, why I had really done it, but I didn't want Eli to know how I felt. I was a coward and it ruined everything.

I hadn't ever thought about him more than just a friend besides that one day, and I was too scared that if I let that influence our relationship it wouldn't end well. In that moment I knew I wanted more for him, more for us, but I was too afraid to lose what we already had and that fear might have just been the one thing to drive Eli away from me for good.

I just hoped he was ok.

[ Hawk's POV ]

I woke up to my blaring alarm and smacked my phone until it turned off. I heard Brett groan next to me and I turned to look at him.

There was a little drool on his pillow and I smiled at how disheveled he looked. It was cute.

He rubbed his eyes and ran his hands through his hair then sat up and looked at me. He smiled when he noticed me staring at him and I smiled back leaning over to him and kissing him softly.

"Woah, woah, I haven't even brushed my teeth yet," he said in a groggy morning voice.

"Doesn't matter," I said and I kissed him on the cheek then made my way into the bathroom to get ready for school.

I had washed my hair out last night removing all the product so that it was a flowy mess and it didn't occur to me until now that I didn't have any of the products I needed to put my mohawk back up for today.

Shit, I thought. I couldn't go home or my mom would be confused and I knew Brett wouldn't have anything I needed so I'd just have to go through the day without my usual badass look. Wonderful.

Miguel had texted me in the morning asking if I wanted a ride, but I told him I wasn't home and I'd just meet him at school. He seemed a bit suspicious, but just agreed and we moved on.

Once I was finished getting ready Brett took his turn and then we both made our way to school, we could've walked, but it was pretty cold outside so we decided it was best to drive. And damn did he look hot driving.

"Alright so I don't know if this is the best time, but uh... do you wanna talk about... yesterday?" Brett said extremely flustered.

To be honest, I really didn't know what I wanted. Yesterday was great, but after everything with Demetri, I didn't know if Brett was just a distraction. I liked him a lot, but a relationship... seemed a little on the sudden side.

"I really like you, but I just don't think I'm ready for anything... more... right now," I said hoping he didn't get upset.

I was playing with my hands a little and he could sense how anxious I was. He grabbed the hand of mine that was closest to him and turned to look at me once we were at a red light.

"I'm fine with just being hookup buddies for now if you are," he said, winking at me, and then stepped on the gas.

My breath hitched a little in my throat and I could feel my cheeks getting hotter. I snapped out of it when we pulled into the school parking lot though and quickly let go of his hand in fear that someone would see.

"Hey don't worry, it's nothing to be ashamed of, but just know you don't have to tell people until you're completely ready," he could tell I was getting uncomfortable and smiled.