Binary Boyfriends

21 ~ Friends With Benefits

Miguel and I were about to skip class when a teacher caught us and forced us to go back. I wanted to be anywhere, but here right now and everything seemed to just be falling apart. I looked at my phone to check the time and saw a message.

(Unknown Number)

Hey, I really want to talk to you.

I knew it was Brett, but I didn't have the energy to see him right now. I really thought there was something there, but I guess it was all in my head.

I heard my phone ding once again.

(Unknown Number)

Please, I promise what you saw wasn't what it looked like. I can explain everything later.

God, he made me so mad. I didn't want some pathetic talk about how he made a mistake or how her lips just magically wound up on his, but part of becoming better meant I couldn't just jump to conclusions.

Brett Sikes

Hawk: fine, where?

Brett: Meet me outside of school at 2:30 and we can walk to my house.

Hawk: 👍

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The last bell rang and I quickly got my stuff together and met up with Miguel after his last period. I had told him what was happening with Brett and he warned me to be careful, but was happy I was willing to give him a chance to explain himself.

It was about 2:30 so I walked with Miguel to his car and then headed back to the entrance of the school and saw Brett leaning against a pole waiting for me. Seeing him made me nervous, but I think I was more upset than anything right now.

Right when he saw me he walked over with a concerned look on his face.

"Hey man, you ready to go?"

"Yeah," I said, keeping a straight and unamused expression.

His house was extremely close to the school so the walk was more bearable than I had anticipated. We both stayed silent looking at our phones for most of the time, but right when we got to his house I stood in shock.

I knew people in this part of town had money, but this was one of the biggest houses I'd ever seen. He could definitely tell how awestruck I was at the sight and he laughed a little opening the front door for me.

"My parents aren't here so make yourself comfortable. I can get you a drink if you want."

I walked over to what looked like the main sitting room and plopped my backpack down on the couch. There was a TV almost the same size as the wall across from where I sat down. In the room adjacent to me I could see a huge aquarium in the center. Woah.

Brett walked over to where I was sitting and handed me a sprite. (a/n: GUYS I'M CRYING HSSHXIWK I FIXED IT ALREADY, BUT INSTEAD OF WRITING BRETT I WROTE ETHAN ON ACCIDENT BECAUSE I WAS WRITING THIS WHILE WATCHING LEGACIES AND THAT'S WHO LEO PLAYS GOODNIGHTTTT)

"Ok I know you're probably pissed at me right now, but I promise there is an actual good explanation for what happened."

"Ok I don't need to know that just tell me already," I said, growing more and more impatient.

"So basically, Demetri broke up with Yasmine and to get back at him she kissed me. I didn't even know she existed before today, I'm pretty sure she just grabbed onto the first guy she saw. I didn't even realize what was going on until the kiss was over and that's when I saw you. I'm really sorry."

"Wait, wait, so let me get this straight. Basically, Yasmine's just a bitch? End of story?"

We both laughed and then Brett nodded to reply. That was a lot more simple of a solution than I expected so now we were just awkwardly sitting there. I couldn't help, but think about Demetri and Yasmine though. Why had he broken up with her? I could always ask when we hung out again, but I wanted to make sure it wasn't a sore subject first.

Suddenly, my thoughts were interrupted by Brett speaking up.

"So... not to pry, but would it have really mattered if I kissed Yasmine? I mean... are we..."

"No, no, not at all it's just... it seemed like you were... ya know, and I was just confused, that's all?"

"Ya know...? You mean... gay."

I nodded uncomfortably.

"It's not a bad word dude, but for your information I choose not to label myself. I've dated girls, I've dated guys, but I don't really focus on the logistics of it ."

I was fascinated, by what he was saying. I liked that he was so open about it, and open to anything it seemed. It almost made me like him more.

"How about you?" he asked, seemingly genuinely curious about my answer.

"Uh... well... I-"

"Hey, hey, hey don't sweat it man. If you don't know you don't know. There's nothing wrong with that."

He put his hand on my back moving a little closer to me and I smiled. I could feel my body getting hotter as he touched me and I looked up at him.

God was he hot.

He kept his hand on my back for a little longer than he probably should've and my heart felt like it was going to explode. There were so many things on my mind constantly, but in this moment I could only think of one thing.

Without even realizing it, I kissed him.

He pulled away for a second.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes," I nodded, and he aggressively pulled my face into his.

His lips were soft, but passionate. I met him with the same level of force and he slowly started pushing me down onto my back. His hand was under me around my waist and I had one hand caressing his cheek and the other in his hair.

Now I was a very impulsive person, but this probably took the cake for the most impulsive thing I've done. As we started getting a little more into it though, a memory flashed through my mind. I stopped suddenly and couldn't breathe.

"Hey, hey it's ok, I'm here, we can stop if you want," he said instantly sitting up when he saw me freak out. He started rubbing my back, but I stood up quickly and grabbed all my stuff.

"No, it's not your fault I just... I have to go."

I ran off and didn't stop until I was back at my house. I ran up to my room and slammed my door. I couldn't get that stupid memory out of my head. It wasn't even real, it was a mistake, but it was taking over all my thoughts and I couldn't seem to shake it.

I wanted to cry.

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to punch someone.

I just wanted to feel something other than this wave of confusion.

But most of all, I wanted to call him.

I grabbed my phone and saw a text from Brett, but ignored it. There was only one person I wanted to talk to right now. Demetri.