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xiii : friends

Well, you figured out what Hisoka was laughing at.

You took a shower, washing up and finishing the rest of your nightly routine. You went to brush your teeth in front of the mirror. You looked back at yourself, remembering the makeup on your face. He knew.
You took a couple deep breaths. "He knew I was going to see Rayn and he let me leave with the stupid marks on my face." You groaned to yourself.

You would have to force him to take it off you next time you saw him. For tomorrow, you would just have to cover them up as best as you could with some makeup.

You had a hard time falling asleep, imagining all the horrible ways tomorrow could go.

Rayn (8:22 AM)
we're still on for 9:30 right?

(y/n) (8:43 AM)
yup see u then

Rayn (8:45 AM)
okay :o]

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You walked into the sit-down bakery, it smelled like sweet bread and coffee. Rayn was already sitting down, as usual having a drink and a pastry ready for you before you even got there. He gave a half-hearted smile, avoiding eye contact with you.

"I asked that cashier what her favorite is and I got it for you.. I hope you like it."
"Thanks, Rayn." You replied quietly.

The silence set in, accompanied by the random chatter in the room. He sipped his coffee before saying, "You knew before I did?"
You nodded your head. Now you were avoiding eye contact with him. "How long?"

You rubbed your hands, body language becoming more awkward. "A while." You admitted.

"You could've told me." He said with a slight bitterness to his words.
You sighed, "You would've gone after him and he would've killed you without a second thought."

"So why do you hang out with him? He's dangerous!" He raised his voice, catching a few glares.
"I don't know." You shrugged off his question, because you could never answer it for yourself anyway.

Both of you sat in silence again, you took a bite from your pastry as a break.
"I'm sorry I yelled." He broke the tension.
"It's fine. I get why you're upset, and I'm sorry about what happened to you cousin. I just can't let you get hurt trying to get revenge. You're my friend, you know?"
He nodded his head, still visibly sad. "Why do you protect me but stay with him?"

"It's complicated." You said.

"I think I get it," He looked at you.

"You fell in love with him." He smiled softly.

Huh?

You tried to mask your disgusted look.
"Yeah, you don't get it." You denied his accusation, face starting to get warm from embarrassment.
"Is that why you kept it from me?" He began to tear up. Oh god.

"For the sake of love?" He continued, dramatically.

"That's so romantic, (y/n)." His lip quivered.
"You've got it wrong.." You tried interrupting. Rayn leaned over putting his hand on your shoulder. "You're my friend. I won't be mad if you're really in love with him. Plus.. I know Rayjo wouldn't want me getting killed trying to avenge him."
"Right," You said. "I'm sorry I lied to you." You said, failing to maintain eye contact, still feeling guilty.

"It's okay." He said softly, "I get why you did. You should've told me he's your lover." He nudged your shoulder playfully.

You visibly cringed, scrunching your nose. "He's not my lover." Rayn laughed. You both stood up cleaning up our area, getting ready to leave. Rayn walked over to you, holding out his pinky. "Just don't lie to me again, okay? You're my friend and friends don't lie to each other."

"Okay." You agreed, not knowing if you would be able to keep true to your word. Your pinky's wrapped around each other's and Rayn looked happier than when you first got there. "I still don't like the guy, though." Rayn mumbled.

It felt nice having a friend, and the conversation went over a lot better than you imagined. Who would've thought Rayn was such a sap for romance. The idea of falling in love with Hisoka still creeped you out. Sex was one thing, but love was another to you. Your love life didn't exactly have the best track record, and falling for a murderer was pretty much destined to fail. Even if that murderer believed your meeting was due to fate. You decided that you wouldn't let yourself catch feelings for Hisoka.

But.. the physical aspect could stay.

You went home and laid on your bed after scrubbing off the makeup you caked on your cheeks earlier.

You passed the time, looking at pictures of nature on your phone. Even though you adjusted to your new life with Hisoka, there was that one part in your brain that wanted to travel the world as originally planned. Maybe Hisoka could go with you, but he'd probably get bored very quickly.

It was late when Hisoka called you, he tapped his nails against the table as the phone rang, waiting for you to pick up. He called twice before you picked up.

"I thought I told you not to bother me today."

"You're done talking with your friend aren't you?"

"That's not the point."

"I assume it went well?"

Your face heated up remembering all the corny things Rayn was saying about you being in love. "Yeah, it's all good now."
"How lovely." He hummed.
"I'm going to hang up now." You announced. "You're so cute when you pretend you don't like me~" He whispered. You froze up for a second. "Or maybe I just don't like you." You grumbled back.

He laughed, "The way you bury yourself in my chest when we share a bed says otherwise, (y/n)."

"Good night."

Beep.

He laughed to himself, knowing he could get under your skin so easily. He texted you what he originally called you for.

Hisoka (10:26 PM)
I have a fight tomorrow at the Tiger Arena. You may come watch, if you'd like. I always enjoy your presence.💧^-^ ⭐️

This was one of those nights you missed Hisoka's warmth, and the smell of his cologne. All the things you hated that you liked about him. From his strong arms to his pretty face. The way his star and teardrop matched his style perfectly. His voice that you could never get enough of.
You buried you head in your pillow trying to get that stupid murderer out of your head. It was time to sleep anyways.

For Hisoka, it was one of those nights he wished you were there so he could tease you. He wanted you to smack his hand when he tried to caress you. His face would soften if you'd let him hug you. He wasn't previously accustomed to affection much, but he liked it with you.
It was one of those nights he wished you were in his sight even if you were too stubborn to let him cuddle with you or not feeling loving enough to hold him. He wished you were in his sight so he knew no one else was using you as their toy. He wanted your sweet scent near him so he knew you wouldn't take off without him knowing. As much as he would love to hunt you down, you were so much more convenient to him when you were close by.
It was one of those nights he wished you were in his bed, even if you weren't in his arms. He adored the fact that you were his partner. Most of all, he missed your powerful aura.

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(a/n: i'm sorry if this chapter fell on the boring side but let me know what you think <3 have a good day/night , stay safe and try to smile today)