relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
can a relationship survive when insecurity and distance is involved? will...
i rubbed my temples in an attempt to ease the headache that was slowly forming. "daniel i've already told you, i can't just pick my life up and live on a tour bus with you for 2 months! i have college and a job that i can't just leave" i sternly said to my boyfriend, of 6 and a half months.
"you don't have to decide anything right now, we still have awhile until tour starts. look i don't want to fight, but promise me you'll think about it?" he pleaded, adding a puppy dog pouty face to his expression. "sure i'll think about it, but the odds aren't looking good" i spat back, annoyed with him.
he walked over and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into him and resting his chin on my head. he kissed my forehead and ran his fingers through the ends of my hair "i'll just miss you too much if i leave you for that long" he said sadly. i stepped back and looked into his big, ocean blue eyes.
"daniel, of course i'll miss you too, but i ju-" i said, but he cut me off. "no, no more talking about it right now! i want to just enjoy our evening together" he said wrapping me back in another tight hug. daniel and i had been dating for almost 7 months, and it's been great... but now he's about to leave for tour and we're at a crossroads.
he wants me to go with him. live in his tour bus, go to every show, and just live the bus life with him. but i don't want to do that, it's just not for me. plus i have college and my new job as a receptionist at this big business corporation... it's not a lot, but it helps with the bills.
i love daniel, and of course i'll miss him like crazy while he's on tour, but i have to stay here. he's brought up the idea twice now, and both times i've declined... but i feel he's going to be pretty consistent with this. it's not like we won't see eachother the whole time either, i mean the boys have several LA shows and i already agreed to fly out to a few stops.
of course i'm not excited for a long-distance type deal, but it's only for 2 months... we can handle that. in an attempt to keep us from getting in an argument about it, i let it go for now. i know daniel thinks he can convince me to go, but i don't see that happening.
i decided to forget it for the moment though, and just enjoy my time that i still have him here. tonight we were watching a movie, my choice tonight was 'the kissing booth' but i wasn't really paying attention much... it was nice to spend time with him all the same though. ___________________________________
