relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
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today marks 3 weeks since that dreadful day when daniel left for tour. i'm slowly getting better, my life is starting to feel more normal again. at first i was sick, literally everyday i just didn't want to move from my bed... but here lately it's been better.
i go to school and work, put all my focus on them and it makes it a lot easier to not think about him. nights are harder though... when i'm left alone with my thoughts, i always think of him. what is he doing right now? is he sad without me, probably not though. has he already moved on? he meets tons of girls everyday on tour, i'm sure he's at least talked to someone knew.
today i was hanging out with anna, daniels sister. even though daniel and i broke up, i'm still good friends with his family. anna's one of my closest friends, and she understands me really well. i picked her up and we made our way to the mall to do some shopping.
we shopped all morning and then grabbed some food and sat down to eat. "so how are you? things going any better?" she asked as she took a bite from her salad. "it's still really hard, but it's getting better. i don't think about him as much anymore, i don't know if that's a good thing or not" i replied with a sigh. "it is good, that means you're healing!" she said
"have you talked to him? i haven't tried to talk to him... i figured he wouldn't want to hear from me" i asked "no i haven't, i think he's been really focused on tour. i know he was the one to break up with you, but i'm sure he hasn't taken this lightly. i know the way he looked at you, he really loved you" she replied
"that's what i thought too, until he told me otherwise. it's fine though, i just hope he's doing good" i stated "well if i hear anything you know i'll tell you!" she said putting her hand on my shoulder. "i know, thanks anna. the best friend i could ask for" i said with a smile "pshh tell me something i don't already know" she said in a sassy way. i hit her arm before we picked up our food and continued our shopping.
𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧 after shopping all day wotj anna i was exhausted. when i got home i put away all my things, took a shower, threw on my pj's, and then crawled into bed. it was only 7pm so i wasn't tired yet, i decided to just watch some tv and scroll on my phone.
i opened up instagram, an app i'd been avoiding here lately, and my fingers instantly went to the search bar. i typed in daniels instagram handle and soon found myself on his page. he had posted a few pictures since the last time i'd looked, all from tour, but he looked happy in them all. my heart twisted in my chest, i guess he really was fine without me. when i scrolled down i found the last picture he had posted of us, why hadn't he deleted them? i couldn't handle the hurt i suddenly felt, so i threw my phone to the side and watched tv until i fell asleep. ___________________________________
