relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
can a relationship survive when insecurity and distance is involved? will...
another day, another rehearsal. today we were learning the choreo for stay. we had been rehearsing all morning and were just now getting a break. i walked up and sat beside corbyn on the couch, grabbing a bottle of water on my way. "bro i'm so exhausted" he sighed "same, i'm so burnt out" i replied
"hey did riley ever say if she was coming on tour with us?" he asked me "no, she doesn't want to leave college and her job... which i understand, i just really want her to come" i replied "i get it bro, but i'm sure you two can get through it even if she doesn't" he assured me.
i was scared of what might happen while i'm away, what if she found someone else? someone who didn't have to leave and go on tour so often? someone who went to college with her, or was with her everyday at work... i'm just scared of being forgotten. that's why i'm so persistent about her going with me, i guess i'm just too scared of the what ifs.
i was snapped out of my thoughts by jon saying we had to get back to rehearsal, so i heaved myself up from the couch and slowly made my way back to the rehearsal room. on top of the whole deal with riley, there was still so much we had to do before tour and even thinking about it stressed me out... but i guess that's life right now.
—𝗋𝗂𝗅𝖾𝗒'𝗌 𝗉𝗈𝗏— with daniel being so stressed lately, i decided i'd do something nice for him this afternoon. i made his favorite dinner, then set up my dining room table with candles and a nice tablecloth. everything was so cute and it made me really excited to see daniel.
daniel was supposed to be done with rehearsal at 6, so when it hit 6:20 and he wasn't here, i got a little worried. i'm sure they were just still rehearsing, but my nerves were still growing. at 6:30 i decided i'd text him, just to make aure he's alright.
i waited about 10 minutes and then i couldn't wait any longer to eat. my phone rang about 20 minutes later, it was daniel. "hey, where are you? you were supposed to come over an hour ago" i said, relieved to hear his voice. "i know i'm sorry, but jonah had an idea for a song and it sounded really good. we went to my studio to work on it, sorry i didn't call sooner" he said
"it's alright, i guess... i just wish you could've come over, i had a surprise for you" i said sadly. "i'm sorry i missed it, but maybe you can just give it to me tomorrow? i promise we'll hang out tomorrow" he replied. "well it's not... um yeah, tomorrow" i said, not admitting it was a dinner. "i've gotta go... it sounds like we might have a hit here though, again i'm really sorry... i love you" he said "love you too" i replied, and he hung up. so much for a nice evening with my boyfriend. ___________________________________
