relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
can a relationship survive when insecurity and distance is involved? will...
i woke up today with a new appreciation for life. so what if i got my heart broken? i'm healthy, i have great friends, i have a good job, and my classes are all going well. i need to stop moping around over him, he's clearly doing fine without me so i should do the same!
today was the first day in a long time that i've felt perfectly okay, like i'm back to normal. i woke up early to head to the gym, a new hobby i'm trying to pick up, and then came home to eat some breakfast. after that i went to school for my morning classes, met up with anna for lunnch, and then headed off to work.
i didn't think about daniel once today, and even if i had, i don't think it would've bothered me. i'm home now, after work i decided to clean up my apartment a bit and then i ordered some take out. of course i missed him, i 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 missed him, but there's no point in not living my life especially when he's doing fine without me. from this moment on, i'm going to be just fine without daniel seavey.
—𝖽𝖺𝗇𝗂𝖾𝗅'𝗌 𝗉𝗈𝗏— every day without her has been harder than the last. at this point, i'm crying myself to sleep every night and just trying my hardest to get through the days without falling apart. the guys are clearly worried about me, they keep wanting to talk to me about it, but i just brush them off and walk away.
i don't want to feel like this anymore, but i don't know what to do about it. today during meet & greets jonah tried to talk me into going back to the bus and taking a nap because i looked "miserable and sick" to quote his words. i'd have been offended if it wasn't true, but honestly he couldn't be more right. i don't even get excited to meet our fans or perform anymore, and i hate that.
the show was about to start when i got a notification riley had posted on instagram... i guess i should've turned those off. she hasn't posted since we last spoke, and although i tried not to, i had to look. i opened instagram and seen a selfie of her smiling happily to the camera, and something inside me broke.
she was happy, happy without me. of course i want her to be happy, but does she not miss me even a little? is she really not phased at all by our breakup? has she already found someone else to make her happier than i ever could? before i realized it, tears were streaming down my face. normally i wait until i'm alone in my bunk to cry, but i couldn't stop the tears. ___________________________________
