relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
can a relationship survive when insecurity and distance is involved? will...
the rest of the day at work i was so mad at daniel i couldn't focus. i ended up getting to leave early so i headed home and thought over what i was going to say to daniel. i cleaned up my living room and kitchen, waiting for him to finally walk in the door.
as soon as he was done with rehearsals, he come right over. he knocked on the door, when normally he just walks in, i opened it and he looked stressed. he hugged me tight and we walked into the living room, although this time i sat farther from him on the couch.
he could tell i was mad, and i could tell he had no idea how to handle the situation. we didn't fight much, so this was all new to us, but right now i was so mad i didn't care. "daniel... do you know why i'm mad?" i calmly asked him.
"because i said you didn't love me?" he replied, clueless... shocking. i put my hand on my forehead and rolled my eyes, why are boys so dumb sometimes. "no daniel, i was mad about that, but now i'm mad about earlier. i said i wasn't going on tour and you embarrassed me in front of the guys saying we weren't sure about that decision. last time i checked i could make my own decisions" i said as calmly as i could
his eyes didn't meet mine "i know, that was dumb of me... i didn't mean to sound controlling or anything, it's just everytime you say you're not going it makes me sad." he replied "daniel i know it's sad to think about, but like i've said... we'll get through it, it'll be okay" i said, scooting a bit closer to him. "i know we will, i'm just scared. i've never done long distance before, and i can't even imagine how much i'll miss you when i'm on tour and you're not with me" he said, finally looking me in the eyes.
he was scared, i could see that, but that still didn't give him the right to make decisions for me about my life. i got up, sat beside him, and wrapped my arms around his waist. "i love you so much daniel, but i know we can handle this. there's no reason to be scared, we'll be alright, i promise you" i said, and he slightly smiled down at me. daniel being scared for our relationship warmed my heart, it showed he cared and that his actions weren't meant in a mean way... he was just scared.
"i forgive you for what you said, but let's not worry about tour anymore. we'll be okay, so no need to talk about it anymore" i said, and he smiled even bigger. "alright, i guess i can do that" he said as he kissed my lips. i'm glad we talked it through, i hate fighting with him.
we went into my bedroom and turned on netflix, something we do too often, and i snuggled in close to him with his arms wrapped around me. i'll definitely miss moments like this, obviously not the fighting that occured just minutes before, but i'll miss sweet moments like this while he's on tour. but we'll be alright, i know we will be. ___________________________________
