relationships are great until you don't see eye to eye with one another.
stubbornness, insecurity, and arguments don't mix well when you're trying to make a relationship work.
can a relationship survive when insecurity and distance is involved? will...
i stood in the doorway of the tour bus as i watched daniel speed away. i'm still in shock from what just happened. not only was that super unexpected, but daniel and i have never had a fight that bad... plus, he brought me here and now i have no ride. as i thought about that my saddness turned into anger, how dare he just leave me here.
i wiped the tears from my eyes and called kay to come pick me up. i sat at the front of the bus, crying, until kay showed up 20 minutes later. she seen the tears in my eyes and hugged me tight. she asked what happened and all i could say was that daniel and i had a fight, i didn't have it in me to tell the full story.
kay and i had become super close after daniel and i had been dating for 2 months, she's always been there for me anytime i needed her. she drove me home, and then begged me to let her stay so i wasn't alone, but i wanted to be alone. really, i wanted to talk to daniel... but he clearly didn't want to talk to me right now.
—𝖽𝖺𝗇𝗂𝖾𝗅'𝗌 𝗉𝗈𝗏— i was more upset and hurt than i was mad, but in the moment anger was all that came out. i felt bad for lashing out at riley, but i couldn't wrap my head around why she didn't want to come with me on tour. the thought of leaving her for almost 2 months drives me crazy.
and not only that, but what if while i'm gone she doesn't even miss me. what if some guy sweeps her off her feet and she forgets all about me. surely i don't mean as much to her a she does to me, otherwise she would come with me. i'm so overwhelmed with everything going on right now, i just want her to me close to me as much as possible.
she always knows how to make me feel better or knows what to say to make me laugh and forget all things in the moment... how am i supposed to live without that for 2 months. i didn't have a destination in mind when i stormed off, i just didn't want to see her anymore at the moment. i ended up at the beach, just to clear my head.
i left my shoes by the pier and walked down by the water. it was completely dark out with the exception of a few beach bonfires going on a ways down the shore and the stars. i just walked along the water for awhile, trying to get out of my head.
i was so hurt, but also mad. i didn't want to be angry with her, but i was. i know i'll have to talk to her soon, but i can't see her right now... not until i cool down a bit. after walking for about 30 minutes i made my way back to my car. on the way home i realized riley didn't have a way home, although i'm sure she called an uber or someone she knew, but worry set in wondering if she got home safely. i sent her a quick text "did you make it home safe?" i said... after a stressful 10 minutes of her not replying, she finally replied with a "yeah" and i felt relief. ___________________________________
