When Summer Ends (Four Season Series #1)

Simula

Simula

You okay, Leighrah. Anong problema?

You deactivated your socmed accounts, why?

Hoy bruha! Anyare sa'yo? Brokenhearted ka ba? Single ka naman, e

Hwag mo na lang pansinin ang mga nagmemessage sa'yo. Delete mo kaagad.

Ilista mo 'yang pangalan ng mga umaway sa'yo. Ipapa-hacked natin ang account. Dali!

Natawa ako sa huling mensahe ni Milaine.

Iilan lang yan sa maraming mensaheng natanggap ko galing sa tatlong kaibigan. Iyon agad ang bumungad sa'kin pagbukas ko ng cellphone ko kinaumagahan.

Me:

Thank you so much for asking. Okay lang ako no worries. Ibabalik ko din naman.

Iyon ang tugon ko sa kanilang tatlo. Tipid na napangiti ako pagkatapos at nakaramdam ng kaginhawaan.

Exposure isn't my thing because I used to live a lowkey life. Mas gugustuhin ko nga ang buhay na iyon dahil ang simple at walang dagdag na problema. Pero simula ng dumating siya...

Nagbago na ang lahat.

I used to hide and locked up myself in a room full of dust particles of dreams and floating wishes. Daydreaming is the best activity of my every night life. That doing it almost at night pampers me and makes me more alive the next day.

Na kahit papaano I have something to hold on when I'm down and hopelessness embraces me.

A long rope of promises and dreams hanging on my ceiling to lift me up.

I have few friends in school but trusted ones. I don't need more friends because I know na hindi lahat sila ay tunay. I just learned my lesson when I was in high school. Nag-iingat lang ulit ako.

Some of them are trying to be friendly because they are just bored with their lives and more especially when they're in need. Kapag nakahanap na ng bagong kaibigan at natulungan mo na sila, they will shoo you and leave. Typical for some youth nowadays. Nothing new.

There are some who wants to hang out or befriend with the famous ones para may kapit. Or should I say... to get in the limelight.

Who wouldn't want fame? Lahat naman nangarap ng karangyaan.

Pero palaisipan sa akin kung bakit pilit ipinagsisiksikan ng isang tao ang sarili niya sa mundo na hindi sila nababagay? Sa mundo na maraming panganib ang naghihintay. I am not being hypocritical because I was once of them. I was once live in the hall of fame trying to fit in even if that's not my place to stand for.

I pitied myself for it. I feel embarrassed and absurd whenever I meet the eyes of cynicism. I pity the people live through it upto now as much as I felt to myself when I was in there shoes.

In generally speaking, how I wish for others to be brave enough, not to be upset without in the spotlight and center of attraction. Hoping for them to look behind closed doors and seek for the real ones. The real... truly friends everyone is seeking for. Everyone that is looking for in spite of the big holes of deceitful invisibly scattered around us.

That's what I did.

And be with my friends now are unfathomable feeling. Kasi ngayon... meron na akong maipagmamalaking kaibigang tunay. Tatlo lang sila pero sobra-sobra na iyon para sa akin.

We cannot build our own hall of fame and never hammered for a big hole of deceit. But we only can build our own castle of friendship. Always open, can be stretch and accommodate for more. Only for the real ones.