Let Love Bleed - A Before You Exit Fanfiction (On hold)

two.

As I walked through the white framed front door all I felt was horrible.

Horrible because I grieved the loss of my parents.

Horrible because I was going to a house that didn't feel like a home.

Horrible because I hated myself.

Horrible because I couldn't let go of the past.

An anxious Toby sat crisscross on the carpeted floor awaiting to greet me.

"Kody!" I was welcomed warmly from Toby's cheerful voice.

Connor chuckled as he shook his head in amusement and went upstairs to his room, I'm assuming. He passed me a thoughtful glare, making me wonder what it could have meant.

"Oh, hey Toby." I smirked while reading his logo T-shirt that said 'I'm only sexy on days that end in 'Y'', and I plopped down beside him. "What are you up to?"

He bit his lip nervously and blushed a deep red.

"Toby?" I cocked an eyebrow in confusion, and I turned his head in my view so he was facing me.

"Well..." He started. "Riley and Mallory were getting 'a little' frisky on the couch when I happened to of walked in." He whispered cautiously, then mortifiedally stared in the direction of the living room. I think I could even hear a little grunting.

Making an absurd disgusted face, I pretended to upchuke, and then I patted Toby on the back. "One day, WHEN YOU'RE OLDER, you'll know exactly what it's like to be in that awkward stage of your life when you're still an adolescent but on the verge of becoming an adult, and you think you've found the 'one'."

He rolled his eyes and complained, "You know, I may only be fourteen but that's only two years younger than you and Riley. I'm not a kid."

Smiling I nodded my head understandingly and stood from the floor and began walking to 'my room'.

Wait... My room is the living room. Oh Jesus, Mallory and Riley are basically getting freaky in the living room. Lord have mercy on my soul.

Let's just say Mallory wasn't the most respectful of others let alone herself. In fact Mallory was a whore. I happen to know for a fact she cheated on Riley, only after one day of dating. The girl just can't seem to keep her legs closed. But why do I care? I only talked to Riley about several times in my entire life. He always brushed me off as a shadow, whereas I just pretended he wasn't there. It's not that we hate each other.. Well actually, I'm not sure how he even feels about me. We just didn't have any type of relationship. Not even a 'you don't belong in my house, peasant' type. Connor and I, on the otherhand are best friends. We've clicked since the first day we met.

Connor was a junior while I was a freshman. We met during a school lockdown. I thought we were under attack when it was only just a precaution drill. Since I'm considered a 'genius' I was placed in an AP Geometry Class. Which in simple form is just an eleventh grade math class. Back to the story, Connor and I were in the same class when the overhead directed everyone to get in the corner farthest from the door and I practically had a breakdown in front of everyone. Besides him, the entire class was infascinated with laughter. Connor kindly knelt beside me, draped an arm around my shoulder, and explained it was just a safety drill. After that we ended up spending almost every minute we possibly could together. I gained a lot of popularity due to him befriending me because let's be honest, Connor is gorgeous. From his silky partially blonde-brunette hair, to his designer brand sneakers. Rumors stated that we were dating but Connor and I just didn't see each other in that way. Which was a relief. I'm not the type of girl guys fall in love with.

Toby and I were mutual, he didn't express any dislike in me. It actually seemed like he had a crush on me. He was always hugging me or waiting at the door for me to get back from wherever I'd go. It was actually kind of cute. But dating someone who I lived with just felt awkward to me. Expecially if they're younger. I mean Toby's a goodlooking kid, hell, the whole family is goodlooking but I am just complex and don't date. Ever.

Sighing I turned the opposite way and proceeded up the steps. Seeing Riley get hurt shouldn't have been in any of my concerns but all I could think about was him being devastated about discovering the fact his 'perfect' little girlfriend has been cheating on him for the last two months. Sure he'd most likely move on a day or two later and start a new relationship but it still wasn't right. What's the point of even dating someone if you're not going to be faithful?

Gliding into Connor's room I noticed how messy it really was. Clothing was scattered everywhere. On the floor, from his dresser, on his bed, in his book shelf, hanging from his guitar. Like I said, everywhere. Don't even get me started on whether or not it was clean. His eyes were glued to his iPhone screen so he hadn't even realized I entered his room.

"You know I could clean your room for you sometime." I offered, while breaking the silence.

He jumped unexpectedly, and then smirked on behalf of himself. Leaning back again, to his usual position, he stared at the empty space beside him and nodded his head for me to join him.

My stomach tightened in knots. I knew his parents had a rule about us being in the same bed unsupervised, but they weren't home. I breathed out in relief and pushed the clothes among his bed to the ground and crawled beside him.

"Hi." He finally said after beaming at the ceiling for a moment.

I turned onto my side to face him and nudged my head into his fluffy marshmallow pillow and shut my eyes. Breathing in Connor's delicate and natural scent I whispered, "I'm tired." Loud enough for him to barely understand.

He chuckled into my ear and pulled an enormous T-shirt from the floor and covered me with it, as if it were a blanket. Why did he have a giant shirt in his- never mind. I'm not up for the answer. "Why aren't you taking a cat nap in the living room?" He asked, while he turned to face me as well.

"Riley and Mallory are peeling the grape." I groaned in distaste.

Connor gave me a crazy stare and began to ask what peeling the grape meant.

"Have you never seen The Suit Life of Zac and Cody? They're tongue wrestling." I explained before I could yawn loudly.

"Well sleep in .. here then?" He hesitantly suggested.

"Your parents?"

"My door locks!" He stated proudly.

"And what are you going to do?" I asked in uncertainty.

"I'll most likely be on the internet, clean up my room, take embarrassing pictures of you and upload them to Facebook." He mumbled the last part.

Sighing in defeat because I was just that tired I shut my eyes and whispered, "If we get caught I'm going to harm you painstakingly."

I fought to stay awake long enough to hear him reply, "Yes, yes, I'm sure you will. And then we'll have a princess Barbie tea party to make up." I beamed hugely as my struggle to remain awake was ambushed and complete ease took over my soul and I felt as weightless as a flightless bird drifting into nowhere.