We're preparing for Thando's funeral. I'm at home dressing up my mom shouts from the living room
Mom: Zola!!
Me: Ma?!
Mom: khawuleza ntombi (hurry up girl)
Me: ndiyeza mama (I'm coming mom)
I quickly put on my black stilettos and try to grab a black jacket from my messy wardrobe and a brown envelope falls to the floor. I look down and bend to take it..it's the letter Thando wrote to me. It's been a week since I received it and haven't had the courage to read it. I am interrupted by mom irritated mom's voice
Mom: haiibo haiibo kanti yintoni le ingaka ifuna ifika iphelile lomngcwabo (what's keeping you there, do you want to arrive when the funeral service has finished? )
Me: uxolo Ma sendi gqibile (I'm sorry mom I'm done)
I quickly put the envelope under my pillow mentally putting a reminder to read it when I come back
Speeches were done, we all shed a few tears here and there. Thando was then laid to rest. I turn on my heel after washing my hands from throwing the soil in the coffin. I bump into a figure and look up only to see her
Eva: if it's not the girl I fell in love with
Me: the girl who broke my heart still remembers me
Eva: how could I ever forget you
Me: I wouldn't know
Eva: what are you doing here anyway
Me: I'm here to bid Farwell to a friend just like the rest of everybody... Id like to think
Eva: I didn't know you knew Thando
Me: well... it is a small world isn't it
Eva: yeah
Me: and how do you know her
Eva: I don't really know her like that my cousin dragged me here cause they were friends
Me: I see
Eva: we should hangout sometime
Me: we're at a funeral
Eva: I didn't say today. I'll text you the details. It was great seeing you
Me: same here bye
Eva: bye now
We went our separate ways. I found my girls at the gate waiting for me we had planned to go get some ice-creams since it was scotching hot.
Mandisa: haiibo and then you and Eva?
Me: what about us
Mandisa: girl we saw you two
Me: well she was just greeting me she didn't ask for my hand in marriage so can you relax
Mandisa: pshhh whatever girl
Kim was awfully quiet. Honestly if you ask me it seems that after that night we all 3 spent.. mandisa and Kim swapped personalities. Mandisa was suddenly the bubbly one and Kim the quiet one. I tapped her shoulder
Me: you good
She looked at me intensely as if digging for something in my soul then looked away
Kim: I'm good
Me: uhm.. Guys.. Thando letf a suicide note for me
They both looked at me like I just grew horns
Mandisa: you lie. Wft!
I nodded
Kim: what does it say
Me: I haven't had the courage to open it yet
Kim: you should open it, sometimes it's necessary to care about what other people feel for you
This not about the letter anymore.. It's personal. Mandisa looked at me and I shrugged
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I got home and went straight to my room tossed myself on the bed taking my heels off. I flopped to the side and out my hand under the pillow to sleep in a comfortable position. My hand reached a paper like material and I remembered I had put the envelope there so I pulled it out and sat up straight to read it. I took a deep breath in a open the envelope and took out the folded note and made a 1 minute silent prayer then I unfolded it to read:
"dearest Zola
If you're reading this letter it means I am no longer alive, it means that I have succeeded in killing myself. I know this is very selfish of me trust me I do but I saw no reason to keep living. I was so terrible to you I treated you in the worst way possible, played with your heart for my own selfish reasons and don't get me wrong I'm not blaming you for my selfish reasons. In all honesty I was never a happy person before you but you bought so much love and light in my life and I had no idea how to react to that so I did the only thing I'm best at and treated you like your worth is less than a dime. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me one day and I know don't deserve it but I know you're a good person so don't let someone like me change you for the worst. I wish I could get to the real reason why I did what I did but somethings are better for left unsaid. I hope you find someone who will treat you better than I did, more like the diamond you are. I hope they make you the happiest being on earth because you deserve it.
Love
Thando❤️"
I put it aside, I had a huge lump in my throat so I laid down and just let the tears flow freely. Silent cries are always the most painful
I was woken up the following morning by a call. I picked it up without checking the caller ID
Me: hello
I said yawning
Voice: good morning sunshine
Me: uh.. Eva i-
Eva: I'm sorry for waking you up I thought you'd be up by now
Me: kanti what's the time
Eva: it's 11:30am
Me: oh lord I overslept
Eva: do you have plans for the day
Me: not that I know of
Eva: would you like to go to the park with me
Me: of course I would
Eva: I'll send an Uber to your place at 12:30pm is that okay?
Me: yes no problem I'll get ready now
Eva: cool
We dropped the call and I got up and hygiene routine cleaned up my room took my side bag and attempted to open the door to leave.
I met Kim on the door way
Kim: I was about to just knock
I kept quiet and looked at her
Kim: uhm..you going somewhere?
Me: yes
Kim: moving on already
She said walking in my room. I turned around and looked at her in disbelief
Me: excuse me?!
Kim: it's only been a day since thando died and already you're-
I cut her off
Me: how dare you! Why do you even care what I do with my life ain't you the one busy acting like a child?!!! In fact I don't have time for this
I turned around and attempted to leave but she grabbed my hand
Kim: okay Zola I'm sorry
Me: let go
Kim: Zola-
Me: I said LET GO!!
She let go
Me: you know the way out don't forget to close the door behind you
I turned on my heel and left.
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Soulties
FanfictionEva and Zola are two girls who come from different worlds but find love in each other regardless of their backgrounds. take this leap of faith and join them as they embark on their journey fighting the battles of love and overcoming their tremendous...
