Soulties

chapter 26

Ronda and I spent the next following days trying to repair our already broken relationship with the mind-set that Eva now knows so theres no need to hide anymore or be afraid. I dont think Eva was the reason for all this brokenness, I just think we were too afraid to admit or face the reality that you cant fix what is already broken.

Ronda and I decided to go out this one evening, something we had never done before call it spontaneous. We went out with a couple of friends to the Mr George restaurant, just as we settle in, I spot Alice with a few of her cousins I hadnt spoken to her in a while, after getting back with Ronda, I kind of distanced myself from her, and shes a temptation I cant resist.

I see her walk into the rest rooms... shes intoxicated...so am I just a little

Babe Ill be back I say to Ronda, she nods and I get up and go to the rest room... I know Ronda hasnt noticed Alice was here and neither did Alice notice that Ronda and I were here.

I walk into the rest room and admire myself in the mirror to buy time as I wait for her to finish her business, she walks out stumbling on her feet drunk as hell, and I watch her through the mirror as she walks towards the sink fastening her belt. She finally gets to the sink and reaches for the hand wash, she tilts her head up and looks at the mirror, notices me watching her and she freezes

Her: how? What?! Wait how drunk am I?

She blinks her eyes way too many times looking directly at me as if in disbelief. I am amused by all of this... Ive finally managed to catch her off guard.

Me: you okay?

I finally say after Ive been dead quiet since I entered this restroom

Her: ye ye ye... hi

Me: hi

She locks her eyes with mine, my head feels a bit heavy so I balance with the wall and tilt my head my head to her direction

Her: how are you?

Me: Im alive

Her: we all are so lets try again... how are you?

Me: whats your problem?

Her: I have a problem?

Me: clearly

I say slowly biting my lower lip, locking the eye contact with her

Her: plea- please stop that

She pleads with her eyes forcibly shut in frustration. I like what Im seeing so I decide to play with fire

Me: stop what?

I ask in almost a whisper. She immediately shoots her eyes directly at me and stumbles closer, her right arm above my shoulders, balancing on the wall whilst her left hand finds its way to my waist please mammie she whispers softly against my ears sending shivers down my spine. I try to respond but find myself trying to catch my breath instead. If theres one thing Alice knows how to do is leave me breathless.

I grab her left arm thats above my shoulders and place her hand on my thighsdirecting it all the way up. Im trying to communicate what I want and she knows it too, she knows me too well.

I miss you I say through my soft moans. She looks directly into my eyes... hers are bloodshot red and really small

Alice: I know... and I miss you too

I dont respond but I breathe heavily against her ears with my eyes shut

Alice: what do you want?

She asks softly whilst leaving soft wet kisses against my neck

I  ... I... I try to speak but words fail me. I know what I want but Im hesitant about saying it, Im not sure if Ill say it right or the way she wants to hear it. Its hard to figure her out and my biggest fear is turning her off

Alice: what do you want?

She asks again this time looking directly into my eyes. I look away and try to catch my breath

You I say in almost a whisper but not loud enough and I fear she didnt hear me but she doesnt ask the question again so I cant repeat the answer. Her hand reaches my underwear and she runs her hand over it pressed against my cookie while her other hand chokes me sending shivers down my chest. Her lips are close to mines and I feel the magnetic pull but she doesnt kiss thats what she told me and neither do I but this very moment... theres nothing I want more than to feel these small lips against mines. My phone rings disturbing the moment

Fuck she mutters under her breath I am satisfied that she is frustrated by this phone call as much as I am. She attempts to move away from me but I ignore the call and pull her back towards me she smirks and leans forward. My phone rings again I groan in frustration this time I pick up the phone and answer it without checking the caller ID

Hello? I answer in annoyance

Mamas? Ronda says on the other side of the call. I curse under my breath

Me: oh- uh- yes Im coming back there was just a long cue in the bathroom

Ronda: okay we have to go now

Me: sure

I say and drop the call.

Me: I have to go

I say looking at Alice and attempt to leave, she has sobered up a bit. She nods and I walk out, guilt hovering over me but I dont regret what happened between me and Alice.