Begging? As a person you should never have to be in such a humiliating position, to beg? Never! Its the most embarrassing thing ever, you should never have to beg for someone to stay when they dont want to. Especially when they've shown you that they dont want to.
Im known for being the most persuasive person ever, Im very good in that department. So thats what I did, I acted on my skill and convinced Ronda to come back into my life, I couldnt let her go without a fight and indeed I had my baby back in my arms.
Ronda: Im yours Zola
Me: my heart is happy to have you back
Ronda: I love you
Me: I love you more
Somehow being back with Ronda, it changed a few things. Things werent the same as before, this time I felt as if I had to walk on egg shells, afraid that one small incident would make her leave. I worked hard to make sure that I kept my relationship private, her a secret but the more I did that the more people just found out about her, people are smart and Im not perfect, secrets are bound to be discovered at some point.
A week passed and Alice found her way back in my life and I had no reason to keep her away this time but I tried to play far from her, stay away from her but she somehow kept pulling me to her, something about her just couldnt let me stay away for long enough but I was more careful now, I didnt want anything to ruin what I was building with Ronda, even a temptation as beautiful as Alice.
"We need to talk" a text comes in from Ronda as I walk out the bathroom preparing to go to school. I hate these talks nothing good ever comes out of them.
"Okay... Im all ears" something tells me its not good but Im curious I want to know
"No we'll talk after school" okay I guess she doesnt want to ruin my day and walk around with a long face all day but I also cant help but spend the day worried about what she has to talk to me about.
"And then whats with you?" Mandisa says as she passes to take a seat behind me in maths class
I huff and turn to face her "Ronda sent me the 'we need to talk' text" I say whispering
Mandisa: ouuu those are never good. Any clues?
Me: she probably wants to break up
Mandisa: come on dont think like that
Me: then why else would she want to talk? You know how Ronda is
Mandisa: I hope its nothing bad friend
By the time school is out I cant wait to get home so Ronda can finally tell me whatever she has to tell me, I have a knot in my stomach and she only gets home at 5pm whilst I only get home by 3:30pm, patience has never been my thing but Alice seems convinced that I have patience, I dont know where she gets that idea because its certainly- no why am I even thinking about her
Its 6:02pm and Ronda is still not picking up her phone, Ive called more times than I can count, she isnt answering any of my messages either, Ive drank several glasses of water the past hour to calm my nerves
"Mammas?" she finally answers on the third ring. I had planned to give her a piece of my mind when she finally picks up but now I seem to be tongue tied
"Hey?" I manage to speak
Ronda: look Im sorry I only got home now, I had extra classes and-
Me: its okay
I say cutting her off.
Ronda: babe-
Me: can we talk about what you wanted to talk about?
I hear a faint sigh... this must be heavy
Ronda: okay babe please dont get upset but whatever happens just know that I love you okay.
Me: Ronda just talk
Ronda: Neli she- umm- we've been seeing each other for a while now and I know I told you I broke up with her but she came up to me a while back, crying begging me to take her back and so I- I took her back. Babe Im sorry please say something
You know that feeling you get after you find out you've been lied to for a really long time? Yeah I had that. I remember the first time Ronda told me about Neli that was probably a month back when I had seen a picture of the two of them. Apparently she came before me but she was an ex, at least thats what Ronda made me believe
Me: you lied to me
Ronda: look babe I know how crazy this sounds but I love you more and Im only with Neli to keep a front to Eva
Me: to keep a front to Eva?!!!
Ronda: yes babe you know Eva can't find out about you and me because I would lose my friendship with her
Me: wow so we're back to that now
Ronda: Zola please just understand, Eva is already having suspicions and so are her friends. We need to keep a low profile and with Neli in the picture it will make everyone believe-
Me; you sound insane right now do you even hear yourself? I couldn't care less about Eva and her little friends. Look I know it bothers you knowing that you betraying your friend but it gets to me too okay? But you dont see me having someone else on the side.
Ronda: Im sorry
Me: just tell Eva the truth please
Ronda: I cant
Me: then I cant be with you either
Ronda: are you breaking up with me?
Me: I dont know but theres no point of this relationship continuing if you won't do right by me
Ronda: so this is it?
Wow so she really wont fight for me? Okay
Me: yeah
Ronda: I love you Zola
Me: I know.
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Soulties
FanfictionEva and Zola are two girls who come from different worlds but find love in each other regardless of their backgrounds. take this leap of faith and join them as they embark on their journey fighting the battles of love and overcoming their tremendous...
