Soulties

chapter 27

3 months had passed. Ronda and I had broken up Alice and I were getting closer and closer each day and it felt amazing, although I felt she wasnt as invested in us as much I was. We started getting close after we both had our break ups, and we were meant to be each others distraction, but I guess the universe had other plans. We started going out more, kissing more, fucking more and everything was total bliss.

The night of her matric dance was the hardest for me. She looked so beautiful Im sure as hell she turned heads wherever she walked passed, something told me that something would happen that night, deep down I feared and prayed that it better not be the night I lose her but you make plans and God laughs because that night, she met someone new, someone shed choose over me. The following day we had a date planned, our first official date and of course she had to be 2 hours late, I was disappointed, and I guess my mood mustve projected to hers.

I have to go home she said, it had not even been an hour since we arrived at the venue. I was shattered, I had fallen for this girl so much and she wasnt, she wasnt even catching me, so I allowed my emotions to take over me and let the tears flow. She pulled me closer to her and put her hands around me, in that moment I felt cared for even though I knew she didnt love me, and I knew I could never make her love me but I had hope. A while after that we settled to watching a last-minute movie. We got in, sat at the very back of the row and watched the movie commence, I mustve watched only 10 minutes of that movie then I put my left leg on top of hers and lifted my head to meet her eyes and we locked. Are you sure? she asked sweetly, I nodded. She grabbed my face and kissed the living lights out of me while her right hand made its way to my cookie. Should I remove the tights? I asked. I dont know why I wore them to begin with, but I knew she hated them. no she responded. She found her way through the tights and through the panties and finally. I felt her fingers caressing my clit but I was impatient and needed her inside me, so I pushed her in and she played with my cookie like her favourite piano keynotes, moaning her name struggling to keep quiet. shhh she kept on saying so I would bite my lower lip to reduce the noise and before we knew it, the movie was over, and our beautiful moment had to be cut short.

We made our way-out holding hands. Are you feeling better now? she asked. yeah I responded with a little smile, who wouldnt be after having sex in the cinema?

I got home later that day and my girls gave me a video call

So? How was the date? they asked in unison.

It was great, we made out in the cinema I say with a smirk

You lie!! Kim says in shock

We want details, come on now Mandisa says and I tell them all about my day.

A few days after our first date I felt her drifting away from me, I felt her loose communication with me as if she was falling out of interest with me and as usual, I tried to hold on to her so she doesnt slip away. I decided to invite her out for lunch hoping that maybe the reason why shes been so distant is because of our first fuck and maybe if we saw each other then we could be okay again but what I wasnt prepared for is what she told me on our way back home. I had spent the entire date anxiously waiting for her to tell me, but she was nervous, scared of how I would react.

I want to tell you this, so you dont hear it from anyone else. She says fidgeting with her fingers.

Alice talk please. I say with my heart beating out of my chest.

I met someone she says and looks at me

Okay I respond impatiently

I met her on the night of the matric dance, I dont know how serious its going to get but I thought its important I let you know she continues

Had this information registered in my head right there and then, I wouldve collapsed, from a heart attack or panic attack, whatsoever but no.

So why are you telling me this? What does this mean for us? I ask

I dont know, thats up to you. She says

Im so confused, I thought we were getting somewhere, what happened? Was this all a game to you? Did you not have any feelings for me at all? I ask with my heart racing; I know what that means Im angry and if I dont laugh, I might cry.

I tried Zola, I stuck around because I thought eventually, I would feel something she says

But you didnt I respond

But I cared, I still care about you Zola.

no, you dont, fuck Alice! I let you in, you made me trust you, I bought you to my home, you got to see me at my lowest, you saw my insecurities, I let my guard down for you and you couldnt even realise I- I paused realising she cant know; she doesnt deserve to know.

you what? she asks

Nothing, bye Alice. I say and attempt to leave

Zola! she calls out, I stop on my track and turn around and look at her, Im not sure I can read how she feels.

Im sorry, I really am she says

You know I hate sorries. I say and walk away.

I spent the next few days depressed, losing focus on my exams at school. My friends helped with the distraction, at first it was hard to tell them about our separation but eventually I knew I had to tell them. Alice was toxic, the more I talked to her, the more I hurt myself, the more I questioned her or tried to make her stay in my life, the more I seemed desperate, eventually I was at wits end and my heart on shut down. I wasnt sure I'd ever get over her, my second major heartbreak, first it was Eva and now... Alice.