People say the loss is the hardest part but the hardest part is the grieving. It's the days where I simply can't sleep because his laugh replays in my head and his color haunts me like it's shining through my window. It's the days where I can't get out of bed because his smell lingers in the world. I sighed and wiped my tears as I stood up and kissed the picture of my beautiful boy. "I miss you" I mumbled before getting up and walking to the small desk that had my computer on it. I read the term assignment titled "write me a song about love and then write me one about loss". The word love brought me pain. It made my colors grey and it made my body ache at remembering how much he loved me. The song about loss was something that could come easily to me because of how much love we had and lost it all at once. After a lot of courage I sat in front of the piano and played a few notes. "Yelling at the sky, screaming at the world, baby why'd you go away?" I said and I sobbed loudly. "Heaven only knows where you are now" I sang and felt my heart so heavy. "How do I love? How do I love again" I mumbled. "Every night Im dancing with your ghost".
Singing that brought back a memory. A memory of the color pink.
"I suck at dancing" I said, "just step on my feet and I'll sway us" he said and I laughed before stepping on his feet and he swayed us quickly before tripping us and we landed on the ground. "Ow my head" I said and Daniels face filled with panic. "Don't move let's go" he said grabbing my head that was bleeding and helping me into the car. He was silent the entire way to the hospital and silent even after I got stitched up. "Im sorry" he mumbled and I sighed and walked over to him. "It's not your fault danny" I said kissing his pouty lips.
Those stitches did not compare whatsoever to the pain I feel now. Every memory brought back him and I just always yelled at rhe world for an explanation. The world has screwed me time and time again but Danny will forever be on my list of all the good in the world.
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The Color Blue
FanfictionI like to believe that the stars aligned when we loved each other because she was red, I was grey and our love was the color blue.
