Don't Be Afraid BxB

10. How Innocent Are We

Phoenix P.O.V *small trigger warning*. *some sexy time at the end* *this chapter has errors*

A few days later I was standing like a lemon by my locker waiting for Alexander to show up. He must be power jerking or taking the longest pee of his life. I grunted in frustration. I had Emily, I didn't look like a total loner. I lost my self in my own thoughts. Alex was perfect in every way possible, his tall lanky legs and how I sometimes had to jog to keep up to his speed. He was slightly pale but not ghostly white, like me. His eyes were his best feature, Every time they were looked into they would always show what he was feeling. His hair was always bed messy, or from me running my hands through it. He was extremely popular so I feel kinda bad for ruining his image. He's my rock, my saviour.

Emily was beautiful, I had to admit. If I wasn't gay, I would definitely be all over her; in my mind. She was medium height she wasn't too short also not too tall. She had pale skin like me, she goes for the natural look unlike her friends who are all orange in fakery. She had gorgeous blue eyes that could capture any boy she laid them on, she was stunning. She had extremely long hair going down past her hips, a bright natural blond colour. She was the princess of the school while I was in her shadow. Shes my best friend for a reason, she picked me up off my feet when I fell into depression.

"Hi Sir", I greeted stepping into my tech class. Alex decided to ditch me. Seeing Jay last week cheered me right up, I was no longer down in the dumps but slowly getting happier. Alex had helped me every step of the way, he's still living with me as i'm never letting him go. "You've currently passed all your assignments, so you could either start a new one and be ahead of everyone. Or do something productive", he waved me off as I placed my ass at the back row of desks.

I wanted to write a new song, I haven't had time to myself lately to just take the pain to the page.
Flipping open my notebook I took a look around me for some type of idea as to what to write
about. Letting my hand scribble across the page for a while, I read over what I had come up with.
This is a masterpiece I had to complete. "Can you hear the silence, can you see the dark. Can you
fix the broken, can you feel my heart?", I mumbled as I added more words down. "Can you help the
hopeless, well i'm begging on my knees. Can you save my bastard soul, will you wait for me?", I
smiled. The lyrics are deep, but it explains everything.

I jumped out of my own skin when the bell blasted through the walls. I stepped into the battleground of the corridor, I watched my back as my bullies always want to make my life hell. I looked to my left, and then a quick look to my right before deciding that i'm safe. Walking down the corridor I took my time getting to the canteen. My eyes scanned across the noisy room to see Emily sitting with all her girly friends, I looked over to see Alex sat with all the cool kids. I frowned to myself, he's avoiding me in school? I guess I'll leave him alone.

I decided to avoid him too if he wants to play that game. I looked over at Emily to see her quickly look away from me. What is up with everyone? I frowned and made my way over to the lunch line. My mouth watered at the pizza on sale but an apple juice carton was free. I stood on my tippy toes trying to reach it but failed. "Fucking juice", I muttered jumping up to reach having my fingers only brush against it. I heard soft chuckles around me, I looked around to see half the room starring at me. "Cant you reach it?", a snickering voice called out. The room quietened. "Obviously not, else I would have it in my hand wouldn't I?", I shot back pissed off with everyone.

Alex and Emily were ignoring me and I was too short to reach a kiddies drink off the lowest fucking shelf. "Smart mouth. How would you like a mouth full of blood?", I turned around to see Jake. He's bullied me my whole life. "Mature. Can you grow up?", I rolled my eyes while still stretching. I grabbed onto the apple juice sighing in relief. I popped the straw in my mouth shooting a smirk towards Jake. I swirled my tongue around the straw and sucked down on it before sending him a wink and attempted to walk away.