Don't Be Afraid BxB

12. Theres Good & Evil In Everyone

Alex P.O.V. This chapter is so bad :c comment for the next chapter? <3

"Phoenix? Are you awake? Babe?", I watched his face. He was peacefully lying in my arms, breathing softly against me. "Mm?", he hummed opening his eyes to look at me. The butterflies exploded with in me, he's just so precious. I sighed, not wanting to get into this topic. "Remember the first day we met? I sat at the table with you and Emily?", my hand reached up to stroke his cheek. "Yeah", he replied sending me a warm smile.

"You said you weren't ready for a relationship, when I'm the only person you've been with...", I trailed off. "I didn't wanna get too attached, when I wanted to-", he cut himself off. I sat up and looked at him seriously. "What?", I tensed. "I was planning on killing myself, I didn't want to get into a relationship and end up breaking that persons heart when they find me", he sobbed.

"Don't I make you happy?", I replied bluntly. "Alexander, you're the reason i'm still alive. You being here with me, I love you more then life itself", he cupped my face searching my eyes. "Don't", I pushed his hands away, not meaning to be so harsh. "Don't ever do that to me, Phoenix", I snapped. I didn't mean to be so harsh, but I was petrified of losing him. Or finding him there, lifeless in my arms. "Promise, you'll never leave me", I held his arms wanting to never let him go.

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"Alex", a moan escaped his lips. "Go back to sleep", his voice breathed out. "Its time to get up", my hands went around his back as I lifted him into my arms. He flinched at first, but clung onto me as I picked him up. "Come on, lets get you some breakfast", I pressed my lips to his forehead as he fell back to sleep on my shoulder. He was comfy, don't judge me. I held my arm under his butt to keep him steady. "Aw, sixteen and still a baby", Phoenix's Mom's voice mumbled. Her hand petted my hair, like a dog.

"Alex's baby", he corrected sending a blush to my face. "My baby", I repeated taking slow steps into the kitchen. "Ally", Megan squealed holding her arms up. She pouted once she noticed my arms were already in use. "So whats the plan", Phoenix's Dad smiled at the table. He held up his newspaper, reading all the gossip. "I'm taking Phoenix to the beach. He wants to go exploring then we're gonna have a picnic. Emily is joining too".

Phoenix P.O.V

"I've never been on a train before", I nervously looked over the edge paranoid that I'll slip through and fall. Knowing Alex, he'd probably laugh. "I wont let you fall", Alex tugged my hand along towards the ticket room. "Two tickets", Alex waffled on about tickets to the lady behind the counter. I have a really weird feeling about today, the kinda feeling that makes me wanna turn around and go home. I sent Alex a nervous look. "Iv'e got you", he slipped his arm around my waist.

We were stood on the platform watching train after train fly past. I gazed my eyes around me watching everyone rushing around with children in there arms. I wanna be a Dad someday, I'd be the most loving and understanding parent ever. Alexander would be an awesome parent, I wanna adopt children with him one day. I'm almost seventeen, but I know what it feels like to be in love. Next year i'm going to college, that thought is what scares me most.

Jake - Haven't seen you around school for a while, depressed? Fag.
Me - Have you been missing me? (;

I looked down at my trembling hands. There was no way, I'm going to pass this course and get into music college next year. I need all A*'s but I keep getting B-'s. I've been working my ass off, going to extra classes but still, i'm failing. I haven't been eating properly because i'm always too busy worrying and researching online. Sir's getting worried about me, he doesn't need to be. I'm fine. I gazed my eyes over my assignment sheet, a big B+ was stamped across the page. My eyes were watering but I refused to cry in school, especially over something I knew I could achieve.