Don't Be Afraid BxB

6. Downfall Of Broken Trust

Alexander P.O.V

I was sat alone in my bedroom, I didn't feel like talking to anyone at this very moment in time. I knew that deep down inside, I had feelings for Phoenix. Phoenix Emerald is the first person I felt truely connected with. He's holding so much negitivity inside of him, hes has a good heart with deep secrets burried inside. I kissed him, I wanted him to know that life was worth living. Theres always someone who is suffering more than you, so you need to grit you're teeth a seek the help you deeply need. I saw the eternity of fireworks shoot around me when I pressed my lips against his. I love Phoenix Emerald.

Every few seconds I would make eye contact with my bedroom door to make sure I was safe at the moment. I have my own secrets too, I have to suffer in silence also. Phoenix is lucky that he gets to go home to loving parents. Whereas I go home to a fist, I go home to a few broken ribs and beatings. Me and Phoenix click in some way, we both understand what its like to feel unwanted. My phone started ringing so I picked up and answered hoping it was somebody, anyone who could save me.

Phoenix: Alex. I'm so sorry for running away. Meet me in ten minutes, I like you
Alex : I understand you were scared, I really like you too Phoenix-

I jumped in fear as my bedroom door shook. My fathers fists banging on the door broke the silence. "Open this door!", he yelled. His voice boomed through my ears, I quickly cut off the phone not wanting Phoenix to hear what was about to happen to me. I cowered away futher into the corner of my room. I burried my face into my knees hoping that would give me some type of protection at the pain which was soon to come. "I said open this door!", he yelled once more. Where was my mother when I needed her, typicall that she would be out safely while her son was at home with this monster.

Phoenix: Alex, please tell me whats going on. What was that-
Alex : Phoenix, I'm fine-
Phoenix: I can hear your voice shaking Alex, Where are you?
Woman :Who are you talking to Phoenix?

A fist connecting with my eye made me let out a yelp as my body flew back. The phone landed on the floor. I tried to keep the screams inside, I didn't want Phoenix to hear me cry for help. I looked up through my good eye, seeing the cruel smirk on my dads face sent shivers down my spine. "Thats it, just be quiet while Daddy makes it all better", he snickered while placing his hand on my knee. I've been abused ever since I was five years old, why can't it ever go away. "Dad stop it!, Why can't you just love me like you did when I was little. Why did you turn out this way, if it's me then I'm really sorry", I cried pathetically into my hands. I felt so week under my dads glare.

"You were a mistake Alex, you're the reason Mother is never home", he ran his hand futher up my leg as I tried to reach for the phone. My entire body just froze, when someone you should trust is using you for sick pleasure. I laid there and just let him do what he wanted. I couldn't run and I couldn't hide from the hands of my Father. I wish he was dead, it's my fault though. "Dad.. Stop..", my eyes started to close as the beating started. A few kicks and punches later sent me into a state, I couldn't even think straight.

I just remianed still on my bedroom floor, while I was being violated. I wish Mom was here, but I'm glad it's me instead of her as she really doesn't deserve it. "It's gonna be all over soon", he grinned while picking up the pace.

"I'm so proud of you, my son", Dad smiled lovingly as he wrapped me up in his arms. I felt so on top of the world when my Dad was proud of me. "I love you, Daddy", I giggled while throwing my arms around his neck. Mommy rubbed my back as she was reading through my school report card. "Our special little boy", she beemed in happiness as my parents looked down on me full of life.

"He needs to be more disaplined, what have I told you about sticking up for yourself", Dad growled out as he looked down at the bruises covering my face. I got beat up on the way home from school, I was only eleven years old. "I didn't raise a weakling", he snapped giving me a quick slap across my face. "Get to bed, right now", he pushed me towards the stairs as Mom sent me a sorrowful look.

"I didn't mean too", I stuttered as Dad saw all the mess I made in the kitchen. I was making him a birthday cake, for a reward I got a punch to the jaw and the rest of the day locked in my bedroom. I grew up thinking this behaviour was normal but I guess it wasn't.

"Thats my boy", Dad said smugly as he fastened his belt. "Next time, I won't be so gentle", he spat while leaving the room with a slam to the door. I couldn't move, I couldn't think, I couldn't even feel. I laid on the floor, I pulled my self into a fetal position where I just let all the emotion built up inside of me explode. I cried, I cried until there was no tears left to pour from my puffy red eyes. My dad just raped me. I heard sounds coming from my phone, that was scattered across the room. Phoenix knows what just happened to me. Why me?

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(some readers might get triggered by this, please don't read if you are going to be upset.. I don't know what happened, I kinda just started writting and let the words flow. I only wanted Psyical abuse to be involved but thats too cliche and expected, so I threw in some Sexual abuse to raise awareness that it does happen and it needs to be stopped :( Comment for next chapter <3 ?