Don't Be Afraid BxB

1. Titanic

(Jay is based on a true person, my own brother in real life. its hard writting about him :c )

Phoenix P.O.V

"Honey, wake up sweetie or else you'll be late for your first day back", Mom shook me gently from my slumber. I honestly didn't want to go back to school, I was terrified. I guess you could say I took some vacation days off school while I worked on my mental health. You see, it's been a year since my brother went to rehab. He got sent away to get better, he chose to do drugs and it backfired on all of us.

I remeber when Jay first started smoking weed, it was innocent and he was still my idol. He was honestly the best person you could ever have in your life, he was my best friend aswel as my third parent and brother. He had the kindest heart a person could ever have, he would always look out for others before him. He would seriously take a bullet for his loved ones, that was before he changed.

After a while he started changing into a completely new person, it broke my heart to see him struggling. He moved onto harder drugs, he was taking coke on a daily basis. I don't understand why he changed into that type of person, but it was his decsion as he just took it too far. His addiction got way out of control, he would steal from me and our parents to pay for his addiction.

He became voilent towards people, I knew it was the drugs taking over. I cried myself to sleep everynight wondering where he was and if he was okay. Mom had no choice but to make him live somewhere else, he was out on the streets in the real world. I saw how much stress it was putting on my parents, everynight we had police knocking on our door wondering about the whereabouts of my brother. He got jailed for three years, for serious theft and assult. I tell everyone he's in rehab, it's easier to explain for my sister and I don't like speaking of it.

I took some time off school as my anxiety was threw the roof worrying about Jay. I loved my brother to pieces so I was constantly on the phone and worrying about him. My self harm got worse at my bullying continued, I spiralled down into a life of depression and self hatred.

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"Phoenix, are you even listening to me?", Mom snapped me out of my trance. I looked up at my mother with anxious eyes. "Honey, I promise you he's okay", she tried to comfort me as I held her back with all the emotion I had. I decided to grit my teeth and get through today, I already have a feeling something would happen. I haven't been to school in six months, It was a hard struggle but my school was understanding and allowed me to take time off. "Get in bitch, we're going shopping", Emily screetched acting the Mean Girls movie scene. "Hey Emmy", I smiled wrapping my arms around her as she returned the hug. "Are you nervous?", she started a convosation while I plugged in my ipod.

"I'm petriffied, my heart is going to fall out my ass any second", I sighed flipping through my song choices. "At first I was afraid, I was petrfied-", I cut her off with a loud giggle. "J bigga!, fuck off dude I'm in the booch", we both giggled to J Bigga blasting out of the car speakers. "Suck my dick for a line of-", Emily quickly changed the song before it struck flashbacks in my mind. "So theres plenty of hot boys at school since you left", she quickly changed the conversation wiggling her eyebrows playfully. "I'ma beat that booch off all these hoes", Emily sung loudly cheering me up as my anxiety fluttered through my ribcage.

"Welcome back hun, everything is still the same so go straight to your lessons", Jane smiled rubbing my back as I left her office and into the hallway which was like a battle ground for guys like me. "Ah Pheonix, nice to see you're back", My music technology teacher smiled welcoming me back into my old classroom. The room still looked the complete same as I took my usual seat right at the front. "Okay class, first off Pheonix you will need to complete you're assignment on stage equiptment. The rest of you will write an essay on condensor microphones, and dynamic microphones", he ordered waving me over to his desk.

"I understand you took some time of so I will allow you to catch up, I firstly want you to go into the drama class. The teacher is expecting you, you will then set up the microphones on the stage and help with the camera shots", he waved me off as I stepped into the hallway. I stepped into the media class to see a few students sat around the dance floor area as they watched ahead. One boy was standing on a step ladder as a red haired girl stood opposit facing away opposit him. "I can't, I'm involed now. You let go, and i'm gonna have to jump in there after you", the boy begged bending down to untie his shoe laces. I realized they were acting the Titanic.

"The fall alone will kill you", the girl fake screamed while pretending to slip from the step ladder as the boy rushed into action taking her hands in his in panic mode. "Okay cut", a voice boomed through the room clapping as the two students took there seats.

I stepped onto the stage grabbing the mic stand, I grabbed a blue cable attaching it to the microphone. The sound of doors being kicked open echoed through the room. I carried on with my work. "Thats the third time you have been late, and who did you get in a fight with... save it. You're not joining in on the acting today, just go and help Phoenix", Sir snapped as I looked around to see who I would be working with. I noticed him step onto the stage, he sent me a warm smile that made butterflies explode within me.

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Dun Dun Dunnnnnnnnn ^_^ the next chapter will be less borning, it will make more sense... I rushed this chapter :( i will make the next one way more detailed

This chapter was so shit :'c I used to be good at writting, what happened D;

The next chapter wont be as borning, I will make it more interesting... the two realize they have allot in common...

This was just a short chapter to get back into writting again...

Hint for next chapter: The boy has a dark past, who did he really get into a fight with? :P

Please comment ideas and how you think i did?xo I love you all <3