Phoenix P.O.V
(Im so ill, so this chapter wont be as good <3)I couldn't sleep, but how could I sleep. How could anyone sleep and pretend everything is okay when I just witnessed pure evil. Why didn't he tell me what he was going home to everyday, he helped me through my problems and he knows I would always do the same. But I understand how scared you can be of your own mind, somethings are better left unsaid. He reached out to me when I was in need, he didn't have to but he did. I'm thankful for his kindness, no one else has ever showed me care. I needed to get to him as soon as I could. I just need to hold him for eternity in my arms so he's okay. I was up all night realising my true love I was feeling for Alexander Storm. He was my first kiss, he's the first person thats ever made me feel this way.
I was falling for him, I understood that now. After half an hour of texting Emily and begging her for Alex's address, she finally gave it to me. I was going to save him, he needs me. What kind of person would rape somebody, especially your own flesh and blood. Its sickening, but its the truth that we live in one fucked up society where there are people who commit to such cruelty like that. I don't understand the type of mentality you must have to commit to such pure evil. My lips were still tingling from where he pressed his lips to mine, i wish I just stayed and kissed back. I'm such a failure. I'm afraid of love, I'm afraid of being close then getting shattered.
"Phoenix, you're going to be late!", Mom warned me as she stood in the doorway to make sure I was awake. I didn't want to go to school, i wanted to see Alexander. "I'm going to Alex's house", I bluntly replied as I passed her and stepped out the house. I needed to get there before its too late. Alex's screams sure made me understand what kind of man his father is, i'm putting myself in danger for someone i barely know. But I feel like theres a connection between me and him, its strange but I like it. The way he makes me feel.
When your in a rush, its just typical that the world decides to go against you and make everything painfully slow. I just gazed into the distance, glaring at every single car in front of me. I need to get to Alex, but the traffic was on my bad side. I want to feel what I love the most, Alex's arms around me. I feel safe, nobody can hurt me when he's around. I want to feel his weight around me, while i just linger in his presence. As soon as the lights turned green my foot slammed into the pedal. I don't care about how many speeding tickets I get. Fuck the police, my brother is innocent.
After driving around almost loosing hope on finding the correct house, my heart raised to my throat when i noticed the similar white door belonging to the Storm house.My knees were heavy, my palms were sweating. I stood on his front porch, alone with my thoughts screaming at me to turn around but sometimes you need to follow your heart, and thats exactly what I did. A few deep breaths gave me the courage to slam my knuckles into the door a few times. Actions speak louder than words, i'm not going to say a word. I'm going to hold him until he pulls away. I'm staying until he asks me to leave. I'm going to help him until he's stable. I tapped my foot impatiently on the wood beneath me. I pressed my face up against the door peeking through to get a glimpse of a limping figure edging closer and closer to the door. Theres no words to describe how fast my heart was slamming in my chest.
"Alex...", my voice just cut off. I remained silent as I stared back into the icy green eyes i've came to adore. They weren't full of joy or amusment like they usually were. They were emotionless, cold like all the life had been ripped out of them. My body just went into panic mode as my arms latched around him. I tried to be gentle but I just needed to feel him close as possible to me. I'm not letting him slip away, he was there for me and now it's my turn. "I love you...", I mumbled softly as I inhaled his sent. He smelt like vanilla, he always have. I buried my face into his shoulder, I didn't know what to do so I remained still.
"I love you too", he broke out in barely a whisper. I heard it, thats all I needed to hear. I couldn't hold in the tears, I joined him by also breaking down. "I'm taking you home, i'm going to make sure you're okay. You were there when I desperately needed someone to notice I was dying inside. It's my turn, you're staying with me. You'll let me because i'm giving you no choice", I breathed out. He broke down in sobs, it was the most emotionally painful thing i've ever had to witness. Seeing him his heartbroken. "Come on, lets get you in the car", I held my arm securely around his back while we slowly made our way to the passenger door.
"You're going to be okay", I smiled sadly even though we were both in doubt. "You know what happened, don't you?", he lifted his knees up and buried his face into them. I just simply ran my hand up his back soothingly not sure of what to say. I climbed into the drivers seat while I listened to the engine roar to life. I felt his fingers link through mine, as least he's showing some type of connection to let me believe he's alright. I drove slowly down the road, it was a peaceful silence that was surrounding us.
His thumb was rubbing against the back of my hand, thats my weakness. I sent him a shy smile as I pulled up in my driveway. My parents weren't home, which gave us privacy. "Are you hungry?", I asked in attempt to make small talk. He simply shook his head but I left it at that. "This is my house, the kitchen is at the back. This is the hallway, the living room and book room is on the first and second door. Do you wanna go upstairs?", I hinted. "Yup", he mumbled. I kept a soft grip on his hand while he weakly limped up the stairs behind me.
We got to the top of the stairs until I noticed him gazing over my family pictures hanging on the wall. I saw a flash of jealousy cross his face but I wasn't going to bring him bad memories. "My parent's bedroom is across the hall. My sisters bedroom is to the right and this is our bedroom", I smiled while stepping into my messy ass bedroom. Don't judge me, I bet you're lazy asses don't clean either.
"Do you want to take a nap or maybe eat some food. You can take a shower if you want", I saw how tense he was, he was shaken up. "Thanks Phoenix", he rubbed my arm as I laid him into the bathroom. "The soap and sponge is on the shelf", I went to leave until his fingers wrapped around my wrist. "Don't leave me", he stared into my eyes. His eyes were so green, they were perfect. Everything about him was. "I promise I wont", I whispered as we locked eyes again. I kept my clothes on as he stripped to his underwear.
We stood under the shower just watching each other in amusement. The joy was slowly filling into his eyes making them icy like his usual colour. All we needed was each other, i'll help him as he helps me and I hope thats the way it shall always be. I was pulled out of my thoughts to feel warmness on my lips. I didn't even need to open my eyes to realise Alex was kissing me. I just relaxed and moved my mouth against his. Hands interlocked.
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