Don't Be Afraid BxB

15. Finally Back Together Again

I'm really sorry about the late updates. I really do apologize, it's just I'm having terrible writers block and i've been slightly stressed about life. I hope you enjoy this chapter <3 I love you allllll!!!! This might be the last chapter, Thankyou every one voted and commented. <3

Phoenix P.O.V

"Ew", I groaned empting my stomach into the toilet. I couldn't sleep, I was wide awake worrying about what's going to happen to me. Mom wants me to see a doctor about my weight, Alex tried to force feed me thinking that's how it's dealt with. There's nothing wrong with my weight, I can't see any problems anyways. I just wish people would quit worrying about my own problems, they need to leave me to deal with them myself. I stood up weakly managing to flush the toilet. I rinsed my mouth out, drying my face off with a towel. I and Alex are still avoiding each other. We got into an argument. I was fussing about people not giving me my own space, Alex was trying to make me understand that people are worrying about me, I needed to understand that I'm not healthy dealing with it alone.

He tried to kiss me. I just flinched and ran to my room, I don't know what's come over me. Maybe I'm just embarrassed about us sleeping together. I love him, but I just feel awkward about it. Maybe it's because I'm self-conscious about my scars, or even my weight. I didn't have the greatest body in the word, I lacked muscle. I was losing weight because of all the stress I was being put through. My grades are way more important than my health right now. I needed to be accepted into music school. My life would be over, my grades are okay but I've been working my ass off to make sure I get accepted into music school. I'm also worried about where I and Alex will stand. He's going to photography school which is linked to mine, so we'll still see each other and live here at home. I'm worried about us slipping apart, loosing contact and finding other people to fall in love with. I didn't want that.

My parents banned me from having sex in the house. We've only had sex once, so it's not like we're banging each other every hour. I wish they would stop worrying, it's personal. We're boys, it's not like I'm going to fall pregnant. Alex just smirked at me from the doorway, the whole time. Would Alex ever want children? I can so imagine him with a daughter, fussing about in the mornings looking through hundreds of clothes for her. I slept in Jay's room as I can't be in the same bed as someone who is currently pissed off with me. Jay's room always gave me some type of comfort. After many sleepless nights, staying up with Jay playing video games and talking about growing up, this room makes me feel safe. "Honey?" mom knocked the door before stepping inside. I tried to cover myself holding the towel up to my body. "I've seen all your bits and pieces", she waved me off. "I heard you be sick, are you okay?" she pressed her hand to my face.

I licked her, making her pout playfully. "Have a day off tomorrow, and make up with Alex", she stroked my back. "Go back to bed, I'll tuck you in", she walked me back to Jay's room. "Mom", I whined. "Shh, let me tuck my baby in", she waited until I got under the covers. "Go tuck Alex in", I pouted trying to shoo her out. "Already did", she smirked. I let her tuck me into bed, kiss my cheek a few times. I'm sixteen, not six. Aw mommy. I secretly enjoyed it when she fussed over me, making sure I was tucked in neatly. All the small motherly things she does out of habit, It makes me feel like I really was hers. I see the smile when she does it, she sees me as her blood, her own son. I take her love and care for granted, but I truly do apprietate it.

"Phoenix, you're going to have to answer me sometime", her eyes full of worry. I felt the bed dip as her weight shifted towards me. "How long have you and Alex been sleeping together", she slipped back into this conversation. I've had enough of my parents pestering me about this, it's none of their business. "The other day and it was only once", I huffed out pulling the blankets over my head. "There's nothing to be embarrassed about", I felt her arm slip under the blankets. I sighed half-heartedly as her hand brushed across my back soothingly. "Well, I'm embarrassed", I mumbled into my pillow. "Why? You can tell me anything", I smiled sadly.