bar "banana fish" / ash x reader

chap XI

trigger warning!!!
+if u haven't seen the first episode of banana fish - spoilers!!!

Thankfully, Ash came to the bar by car, so it didn't take a lot of effort and time to get to your place and now you were already in front of your apartment's entrance.

You opened the door, showing the insides of your little cave to your boss. "Welcome," - you stepped aside, "sorry, it's not that big."

"Don't be sorry, little fool," - Ash chuckled, "I love it here, it's cozy."

He took his boots off, stepping on the soft furry carpet. "What movie are we going to watch? You choose."

"Yut watched 'Gardens of the night' not so long ago, he said it was a very emotional and impressive movie to watch, what you think?"

"Sounds fun, I don't mind." - He shrugged. "Are you sure it's not some horror?"

You thought he said it as a joke, "Haha, I guess."

You led him to the bedroom, where the king size bed was located right in front of the TV. You found the movie, letting Ash pay for it while you're grabbing some chips and cola.

After making yourselves comfortable in the bed, you half-hugged him – Ash flinched at first but still accepted the position – movie has begun.

Everything was going just fine.

Till like the fifth minute of the movie, the moment you realized this is not some romance but is about siblings, whose parents died and they were kidnapped by some man. They, after 9 years of horrific foster care, find themselves on the street, with no one to depend on aside from one another. So by 'emotional' Yut meant 'heartbreaking', huh.

When you were ten more minutes in, you felt a chest beside your cheek slightly tremble. You looked up to see Ash in an unexpected for you condition: his eyes were shut, making the little thin wet line shine in the moonlight.

"Hey, hey," - you frightened, "what happened?"

He only shakes his head 'no', and tried to sit.

"Ash, what's going on?" - Your shaking hands moved towards Ash in purpose of hugging him, however they were slapped away faster than you could touch his shivering shoulders.

Is it a panic attack?

You honestly didn't know what to do to help him, you have never had a panic attack before and so hasn't had anyone around you. Do I just sit? He won't talk nor let me hug him.

His shiver weakened as he managed to speak: "I don't know what was that, sorry."

He seemed to be absolutely okay a few seconds later, as if nothing happened.

"I- Are you okay?"

Seriously? Is that what you ask? - you scolded yourself.

"Yeah," - he whispered, "can we change a movie?"

Change a movie? Was this attack because he's gotten too sensitive about these kids' faith?

"Oh, um, sure! But..." - you began, "Seriously, Ash, there's something on your mind, I'm worried about you, please, tell me."

The voice of yours sounded begging, as it should. It's obvious something's wrong and it was not okay to leave him like that.