You're Still the One (Louis Tomlinson) (FINISHED!)

Chapter 21: The Eye, the shop, and the hosptial

I wasn’t quite sure what to say, I knew Louis wasn’t happy about it either, but the fact that he was going to be spending time with his ex who wants him back bothered me a lot. I got out of his bed and started getting dressed.

“Jovi, where are you going?” he asked.

“I don’t know. I don’t know where I’m going or why I’m leaving, I just want to think,”

“I’ll try and get someone else to audition, I don’t want this anymore than you do,”

“I know,” I mumbled pulling my pants up awkwardly over my cast.

“What’s wrong, huh?” he asked softly crawling over behind where I sat on the bed to put my shoes on. I ignored him, not wanting to sound jealous or clingy or annoying. He repeated his question and I looked up to meet his gaze.

“Nothing, I just want to go for a walk,” I said, getting a tight throat.

Louis went out to the living room and came back holding my crutches and said, “I’m not giving you these until you tell me what else is wrong, I know something is, you’re a bad liar, remember?”

          “Fine then, I will just go to bed,” I said getting under the covers all the way. I just really didn’t want to talk to him about this, I needed to talk to Ashley about it. I felt a weight fall on my body, the familiar weight of Louis, and he pulled down the sheets so my face wasn’t hiding.

“You know I would normally let it go by now. But not this time,” he said quietly.

I looked into his caring eyes, and closed mine. I knew I couldn’t keep anything from him, and I knew he knew I would give in sooner than later.

“It’s not just that she is your ex that wants to get back with you. And it’s not just that she is manipulating things to get her way. It’s the fact that…at one point in your life you loved her enough to follow her to another country. It’s the fact that you guys at one point opened up to each other all the way, and for me, you’re my first time doing that. You’re the first guy who I’ve completely let go of any fear for and completely trusted with everything I have to give you. So the fact that you guys were like that with each other at one point…and the fact that she wants that again…” I couldn’t finish. I was getting a bigger and bigger golf ball in my throat by the minute and I was determined not to cry. I was determined not to be a drama queen baby about it.

          Louis looked at me with a gentle face and replied, “You think that any dislike I have for her now will be gone once I start spending more time with her and she tries to rekindle what we had,” I nodded slightly.

“What I had with Mia was different than what I have with you. I was eighteen, and I thought I had found the one. I followed her out to LA because I thought it would be a fun thing to do, both of us being struggling actors. Except I never had any professional schooling back then. Looking back on our relationship I see it in a completely different way, it was horrible and they don’t lie when they say love is blind. She really didn’t treat me well. I was always more like her assistant and play toy when she needed or wanted me to be. It’s nothing like what we have. It wasn’t real. It was infatuation on my part and bitchiness on her part,” He kissed my forehead and added, “I love what we have and I feel so much better in this relationship than I ever did with Mia,”

          I looked up at Louis, my tight throat fading away, his warm body covering mine was comforting. “I’m sorry I got upset…” I whispered.

“Don’t be sorry, I understand,” he whispered back. I gave him a little smile, and even though I felt a little better, I was still uneasy. I didn’t trust Mia. Louis I trust, but I still was wary about her and I wasn’t sure what kinds of things Mia was capable of.