Rose Colored Glasses

Chapter 31

*ATHULE*

What did you just say?" I say and he gulps down air.
"I want our child to grow up in a home with both parents like we did" he says and I laugh, not because what he just said is funny.
"You did this on purpose?" I ask, not that I dont have the answer, I mean hello! Positive test here.
"I'm sorry" he says.
"You impregnated me on purpose Thabo and all you can say is sorry?" I say shoving him and he stumbles back a little.
"Leave! I dont want to do something I'll regret!" I say to him and he looks at me.
"Athule please, let's..." he starts off but I cut him off.
"I'm not keeping it. Get out of my room and my apartment!" I say opening the door for him.
He turns to me "you cant do that" he says.
"Watch me! Get the fuck out of my place Thabo!" I say and he looks at me for a while before walking over to me, he stands in front of me.
"I love you Athule, my love for you has made me desperate to be with you and in so doing I did the only thing i thought would be able to earn me a place back into your life. I messed up, I know and theres no justifying what I did those months ago but I swear to you I havent been with anyone since you. I've lost all contact, cut all business ties with anyone who would pose a threat to our relationship. I know you hate me for tricking you and I'm not going to ask you to understand my actions because then that would be selfish of me but please dont abort our baby. If you want me to stay far away from you then that's what I'll do, just dont abort our baby please" he says and then he kisses my cheek and walks out.

I close the door behind him and walk to sit on the floor in front of my bed and bring my knees up and place my arms on my knees and just cry.

Yes hes annoying, yes he went about the situation the wrong way but I dont have it in me to abort. What if this is my last child? What if complications happen and I can never have children again? Would my conscience even allow me to go on knowing I've aborted? Abortion goes against everything I believe in, I'm scared to do something like that. My beliefs dont allow me.

"Hey dont cry" Mimi says sitting beside me, she pulls me to lay my head on her lap and just cry. I hate Thabo for turning me into this suddenly emotional person. NdinguGhabhadiya mna, inja yeGame. I dont cry so easily, nothing could make me cry this easily until I allowed myself to love a Xhosa man.
"Shhhhh... its ok" she says brushing my hair
"Whatever it is, it's going to be ok. We going to get through it" Mimi assures me. I'm guessing her best friend didnt tell her anything then.
"I'm pregnant Imibongo. Thabo made me pregnant in purpose" I say sobbing even harder.
"My first real relationship and I fall pregnant. We havent even known each other that long Mimi" I say sobbing on her lap, she brushes my hair.
"Its ok. We going to get through this and whatever you decide I will support you" she says.
"I'm not aborting" I say and I hear her sigh out of relief.
"So what now?" She asks.
"Tomorrow I need to go to a Gynaecologist" I say to her.
"Ok. What time? I'll come with you" she says.
"Gynae comes in after 3pm" i say.
"Ok, I'll be there. I'll fetch you at work" she says and kisses my head.
"Thank you Mimi" I say in between my sobs.
"You my bestfriend Athule. We in this together and also because I'm also pregnant and atleast my baby will have a friend to play with" she says and I literally look up at her "I found out today, I'm 4 months pregnant. I havent told Tshepiso yet" he says, I blink a few times.
"Are we happy?" I ask her and she shrugs.
"I dont know, it's strange. I need to talk to mom and dad" she says.
"You have a stable job and you doing her PHD, they wont be against you. I mean you done with school so it wont be bad and your parents are super chilled so they wont give you a hard time. Tshepi is going to be happy" I say and she smiles.
"Give him a chance" she says and i let out a sigh "you love him Athule and he loves you. He's miserable without you, he literally comes here for you and uses me as an excuse. I know theres no timeframe to healing but friend it's been 3 months now. No pressure or anything but from what I got from mom and dad, it's best to have your partner beside you when pregnant. It makes it bearable" she says.
"I dont know. Yes I miss him, I enjoy seeing him here every day even if hes annoying but I love that he makes it a point to come see me everyday. He's always looking out for me, even if hes not here I just know hes looking out for me Mimi" I say and she smiles.
"Then you have your answer. Stop denying yourself of love" she says and I smile.
"Come let's go and feed ourselves. Tshepi is coming to fetch me" she says and I smile getting off her lap and standing up, I hold my hands out to her helping her stand.
"We were reckless" I say and we both laugh making our way to the kitchen.
"You telling me. I just know your dad will have something to say about us being pregnant at the same time" Mimi says and we both laugh.
"I can already imagine him. Gosh mom, "naqondba nizoncwina nobabini, omnye kweyakhe iroom. Mkmkmk anizoyiki izinto"(you guys figured you'd both be moaning, each one in their room. You children dont fear nothing)" I imitate and she laughs.
"Bekumnandi apha nibusy nisithi mayifakwe yonke, umntu ade aynyokonyele ngokwakhe mntakabawo"(it was nice when you were begging him to put all of it in, you even held it yourself and pushed it in) Mimi says imitating my mother and we both break out laughing.
"Your mother can be too damn much rhaaaa"
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To Be Continued