A Wish Just For You

April: You & Eddy

April 2015

I blankly stare at my failed thesis in my room. My hands holding the stack of scrawled paper limply. When I thought I was ready for it, the world showed me I didn't.

That defense was horrible. I speak as the presentation goes on, but my mind apparently prefer to stay, thinking about Eddy not coming to support me.

I endured it throughout the defense and it finally hit me when the question and answer comes. I didn't answer a few big question from the lecturer, I don't know why I can't talk either. It was the biggest disappoinment I ever felt to myself.

I let out a sigh and put my failed thesis on the table. I leaned back in the chair and stare at the ceiling wearily.

I didn't necessarily remembered the whole scene there, but realizing that Eddy is starting to find out about it is making me depressed.

"Why am I so stupid?" I asked myself.

I slowly close my eyes and got back to sit straight. I stare at the table again and touch my lips with my finger.

It's still there.

I can still feel it.

The sweetness...

I suddenly slap my hand away from it. I know I still remember clearly how Eddy was touching it with his, and it flies my mind away. But I shouldn't be thinking about him. Why did I do that in the first place? Now when I think of it, what a stupid action to do, Y/N, to told Eddy to do something like that.

I sigh again. Ever since that day, I was embarassed to do stuff for him. We are living life normally, like usual close friends, and he's still the same old closed-minded Eddy. But now I personally feel like... I stole Eddy from someone. I didn't expect him to agree though.

Wait...

He did it to me.

At his own will.

Does that mean he feels the same way as I do by him agreeing to do that to me? Does that mean he'd move on from Kelly? Does that mean... we're officially dating?

One more time, I slap my cheek to woke me up from the fantasy.

No, no, no. Now I'm getting my hopes up. There's no way!

I quickly stored my paper in the cupboard and walk out the room to find something, maybe some juice can clear my head.

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Eddy POV

I got attached to another girl than Kelly. That was what's on my mind since my birthday. I literally did that with someone else. What a stupid man you are, Eddy.

I cupped my head and groan depressingly. This afternoon is nothing but being alone day. I already had breakfast with y/n a few hours ago but she quickly got back to her room for some work. I don't know what work she have but I sure don't want to disturb her.

I can practice the piano again to kill time, but I'm not in the mood right now. That piano needs some rest from my depressing tunes anyway.

Come to think of it, we were never really look close like the old days since I got Kelly on my side. I did made a promise with y/n to grow up together, but it turns out we just keep busy with our seperate lives, though we still in contact and hangout together.

It's quite normal for us, yet the truth always looks so depressing. We're just two buddies who didn't talk much anymore. Except in my latest birthday, I guess.

But, isn't it bad? I shouldn't do such a thing to her. We're just close friends, why the heck did my reflex made me did that? Is it the dilemma? Or am I just want to do it? But why exactly?

And about her failure. She never talks about it to me again. She's totally hiding it from me. Even though I already know the answer. She's struggling inside, alone.

It's funny. She always tells me to open up, but she herself is closing secrets with me. Why?

Creak...

I glance when I heard my door opens. I stare at the person there. None other than y/n.

"Oh, did I disturb you?" y/n smiles. That smile she always gave me.

I shake my head. "Come in, y/n."

"I got you some orange juice and snacks if you like." y/n puts a tray full of them on my table. Then, she immediately turn her back to leave.

"Uh..."

She stops, then turn her glance hearing my voice.

"Uh, n-no, it's nothing," I said, leaving her unbudge there. As the usual respond, she just smiles and leave the room.

I grab a piece of the snack and eat it slowly.  It is a star-shaped biscuits, I wonder if she made these just now. But I clearly know it tastes delicious since the first bite.

We were best friends once, but will it lasts forever with us separated by times?

To be continued :)