Hello Internet,
Is it bad to feel this way? Bad to feel happy and giddy over the fact my ex and her girlfriend broke up? If it is, I'm so, so bad. So bad, I'm going to hell for sure. I can't help it! I never wanted to break up in the first place, but I wanted her to be happy. She got in a relationship right after ours and that fucked me up big time.
Even this morning I was telling my two best friends how I miss her. I'd do anything to have her back. No, I don't love her. 'Love' is a very hard concept for me to grasp. Sometimes I feel like I don't know how to love. I do care for her a lot. I'm 'in like' with her.
Another friend of mine honestly thinks I have another shot with her when I asked, and now I'm even more happy. I will admit that the first time we kind of rushed into things, which is kind of my fault, but this time I have to prepared for a relationship. It's definitely a lot of work. After February, I'm pretty sure I don't have anything big to focus on besides grades and making money, so I know can be definitely committed at least 99.5%.
In other happy news, there's SO many concerts I'm going to this year, and I just MIGHT be going to VidCon this year! My brother is a content creator, and he got an invite/registry email, and I might go with him.
This 5 day weekend has been great.
-Kacy
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Non-FictionLittle entries of mine. I don't like writing in "diaries" because they are easy to find in my room, and I really don't need my mom reading my shit. I don't expect anyone to really read this, but this is just an outlet for me that doesn't just involv...
