Hello Internet,
Today was a great day. I decided to ask her to the dance. I went with my original plan. The theme is The Great Gatsby so I made a scavenger hunt for her, based on the theme. Each note/clue refered to her as Daisy and me as Jay Gatsby. I put the notes and trinkets all around the school, got help from friends and teachers. She loved it. She said yes. People around school (most I didn't even know) saw some of the clues and saw her look around for stuff. They liked it, took pictures and shit, posting it. I had fun planning it, and I'm happy she said yes.
We've been talking, sorting stuff out. We confessed what we want out of a relationship and we want to get back together. By the end of the week, I'll probably ask her out again.
My only problem is my connection, and the "feeling" of love. I get it, but I just don't feel it strongly. Now, I'm not saying this directed towards her. Hell, I'm head over heels for this girl...But I don't know. Being close with someone isn't entirely my thing. If I want to get close to her, physically, I will. But if she moves towards me, I kind of back up for my own comfort.
I'm more confident in my head, I always plan out what I'm going to say to her, act around her, kiss her... but I never do it. My mental excuse is "She has to tell me outfront that she wants me to. Consent, right? I'm mostly like a guy, I'm blind to signals." But I know that's bullshit. I know she wants me to kiss her, when I back up, she looks a little saddened. But I don't know what it is. Maybe I'm just afraid. I don't know.
BUT it is a good day. The dance is on Saturday and I couldn't be happier.
-Kacy
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KC
Non-FictionLittle entries of mine. I don't like writing in "diaries" because they are easy to find in my room, and I really don't need my mom reading my shit. I don't expect anyone to really read this, but this is just an outlet for me that doesn't just involv...
